was a BB member couple yrs ago now im back again

[Becka1]

Hi all BB members,

I'm 21 nearly 22yr female. I was part of BB a couple of years ago when I was just new to experiencing depression, and met some good people here, people that I hope still part of the group (some might remember me, but I dought it lol) . I stopped for awhile as I had been up and down mentally, got to the point in life where it was woke up fine and felt that I had no reason to continue to discuss my issues as I felt as tho I was happy again. I had been up and down in the last couple of years and have struggled. Iv returned BB as I have experienced another type of depression in to a different extent to what I first experienced mentally. It's only the last couple of weeks I'v been thinking about my life and where I'm heading and see my self, I had come to the conclusion that I wasn't happy compared to what I had been before depression, I had weighed out some of what my issues are thats weighing me down there has been deffently alot last year that went on for me in life that had changed for me. I don't really have many people to talk to expecially at times like this when I need it I found not many people are there (basically it's hard for them to understand) I want to meet new people who will and can understand what I go/am going through and gain more friends that I can go to at times like this when I need it the most. I'm hoping to make and meet new people and friends and share my experiences and stories, and just to vent and help as well as I'm mentally and emotionally struggling and battling with my thoughts and emotions at the moment but I would also love to be in volved for support as well for others to listen and read other people's stories too:)

[150lashes]

Hi Becka

Welcome back! I'm new here myself having recently joined a few weeks ago.

I find this forum helpful and look forward to been able to support one another.

How are you feeling today?

[Zeal]

Hi Becka,

Welcome back to the forum!

I am female, and recently turned 23. I had mild depression in my teens and have lived with OCD for 10 years. I'm glad you were able to find great support here. It would be tough to feel as though others don't understand, and to not have someone to talk to about thoughts and issues that are bothering you. I've always talked to my Mum about everything, even now. It is a habit, though it's not like it used to be. She has been with me through everything, and I am so grateful for her support.

If you don't mind me asking, do you see your doctor regularly about your depression? Doing so is a good idea when you feel your mental health is going downhill again. Do you live at home with your parents, or with a housemate? It's important to have stable living arrangements, especially when you are experiencing depression or another mental health condition.

A new thread has opened on this forum just for young people (25 years and under) to chat. It's called Friends Cafe. It's not really for venting, but is rather a space to talk about our lives in a positive way to have a break from the more intense stuff on the forum. You are welcome to speak more about your concerns on this thread you've created. I am very happy to talk about more serious topics with you here. It's likely a few others will reply to you as well 🙂

There are plenty of varied stories here on the forum. You may be able to relate to some posts in the Depression, Young People or Women sections of the forum.

Again, welcome back 🙂

Best wishes,

SM

[Becka1]

Hey 150lashes

Thank you so much for posting/responding. Today I'm feeling lowish I guess little better as the last couple of days I'v had out burst of sobs every now and then today I'm not as bad yet but still not feeling the best, but it's comforting know that people are taking time to read my post and respond.

How are you today?

[Becka1]

Hey SM , thank you as well for responding as it means aloit and thank you for sharing.

I do or am ment to catch up with some one once a week but it's been hard at the moment with the living style I'v been in and what I'v been dealing with. Iv actually have a close contact with me Catherine Freemanmen (not sure if you know of her, but google and you could find out more) she is meeting up with me again next week with the person I ment to see once every now and then as I will be getting a medication review with my phsycatrist on the same day. I'm fortunate that I'v ran into someone like Catherine and is willing to be a support and looks up to me as its been a dream of mine to meet her as she is an insperation to me as the type of person she is and bring up to who she is today. I think she feels that there's something more between us then just worrying about trying to help me get back in to my aths again which great. But I do feel kind of like why is she untreated in me now like this but I suppose that's the depression side of things as I have lost confidence and motivation with in my self.

I do apologize as this forum may not make sense and a bit scatted at this stage but I think that's how my mind is running at the moment.

Thank you so much for your response and suggestions I shall check the friends cafe forum out too as that maybe good to look at.

Thanks again SM for responding and taking the time to read and respond 🙂

[150lashes]

Hey Becka

Glad you're feeling a bit better today. It's the whole cycle of good and bad days I guess. When at my worse I used to take comfort in that it would pass and I'd be feeling a bit better soon. It's my "black wave" goes and comes.

Does it help to distract yourself with things that you really love? I know motivation can be difficult. But I find solace in photograohy- just taking photos of the ocean or mountains calms my anxiety.

I'm doing alright today but I've been having bad beaches and migraines. So feeling a bit yuck. Going to see the GP next week! I also have an unwell toddler at the moment so we are snuggled up on the lounge watching scooby Doo!

I'm 33 with two little kids, battling depression and anxiety for the first time.

Keep in touch on here

🙂

[Zeal]

Hey Becka,

I'm glad you found my post helpful! I've never heard of Catherine before actually. I'm glad you're getting help and finding people who inspire you. Don't worry if this thread isn't organised in a certain way. So long as everyone is respectful of each other (and we certainly are here), then there's nothing to worry about! 🙂

It's great that 150 lashes is here too. Hi 150 lashes! I'm sorry to hear of the headaches and migraines you're getting. It's great that you have two young kids - they can help to cheer you up sometimes. I'm sure they're a handful too! The toddler years are like that, though I only know from babysitting, so I am no expert! I hope your toddler is feeling better soon, and hopefully good sleep and seeking help from your doctor will help with the migraines.

Best wishes,

SM

[Becka1]

Thanks 150lashes, completely understand how you feel and what you mean by the good and the bad days.

At the moment my minds cloudy at this stage as to think clear or ahead at what I like to do that will help, at the moment I sorta at the stage of quiet and on my own but at the same time would like to just be around some people and just talk abit to those who will listen, as I don't feel like doing much or anything but know that I can't be on my own for too long.

It's a pain having the mingrains and headaches as they can be painful and not help at the wrong times, I hope the little one get better soon to, must be hard having to deal with depression and anxiety for the first at the stage that you are. But it's good that your seeking help from your doctor too and keeping in touch there, it's hard for me at times as I live out of home and renting so I don't live with anyone at the moment. And I work full time in childcare which is very demanding but extreamley hard at the moment just working there due to staff and very high demands I'm finding that full time work for me at the moment is getting to be a lot and that I don't have much of a life to do certain things. Like getting my car fixed and just working on myself and things like that. But I'm slowly trying to work towards getting myself back again it's just hard when I have alot at once. So I take my hat off to you who has two young ones plus dealing with what your dealing with must be hard.

[Becka1]

Thanks for the understanding SM.

It is good that I have some people I'm now only trying to grab hold of the pops and help I can at this stage to help get up again.

And it's great that the both of you 150lashes and you SM are here

[150lashes]

Hey Becka

Is it possible for you to take some leave from your current role or reduce your hours temporarily?

The reason I ask is because I felt I was only really able to tackle my health issues once I had resigned from my workplace. For me I was in a stressful and demanding management role with long hours and also some issues. I made the difficult choice to resign.

Once out of there I felt a weight had lifted ​from my shoulders. It made a big impact in giving me the ability to focus on myself.

Just a thought, I know everyone's situation is different but maybe something to consider.

Thanks for your kind words also. It is difficult juggling young kids whilst been unwell myself. It makes it harder that the little one is sick all the time and we are seeing specialists trying to get to the bottom of it. Hopefully things will resolve soon.

Have a good night and take care 🙂