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[Guest_630]

Hi, Ive come back to BB as feeling so low. Struggling with daily tasks. There have been a lot of major difficulties in my family, which although ok atm are ongoing. Its hard to get up in the morning. Ive tried counselling and medications. Now trying remedial massage, accupuncture and self help, including exercise. Tough year 2020 and Im reaching out to hopefully get some ideas and motivation.
New year tomorow it mustbe better...

[Guest_4643]

Hi again, sorry I'm just replying to you now. I understand, it drains all energy out of me too. Yes rain can be nice sometimes. You're welcome for me replying.

[Guest_630]

Hey, 3 am and Im wide awake. I feel very low tonight and cant stop the tears. Its so stupid really. I heard someone I knew years ago had died, not a friend, but it was the msg of the hurt and cruelty they left behind. My sadness not for the loss of the person but the lack of kindness, caring and compassion in people, and the need to be distrustful of everyone to stay safe now.

[therising]

Hi Guest_630

I feel for you so much as you face the challenges that come with such a low. There can definitely be a lot of them (challenges), some we're not even aware of.

Sounds like you're incredibly conscious of making positive differences, such as with coming here, the massage, acupuncture, self help and exercise. That's a lot, a lot to be proud of. Being emotional creatures, I believe sometimes we'll feel the differences and sometimes we won't. I swear I spend a % of my life wondering why I can't feel the difference at times. Often, it comes down to either physical and/or emotional exhaustion. Hard to feel when we've got little energy to feel with.

Wondering whether you find life is a bit of an experimentation process. Example, acupuncture alone isn't working, I'll try massage with it. Music's not vibing me up, I'll change the music I'm listening to and even try experimenting with the volume. The greater the volume with some songs, the more emotional the experience. One of my favourite ramp up the volume songs would have to be Lenny Kravitz's 'Are you gonna go my way'. The beat to Scissor Sister's 'I don't feel like dancin' always gets me vibing a little higher. Suppose you'd call it all music therapy.

I find meditation to be a big influence in my life. I'll meditate on just about anything. Yep, I'm a bit of a daydreamer. I'll zone out from life and meditate on the shapes or compositions of clouds, meditate on wonder (wondering why people behave the way they do in the moment), meditate on inspiration (opening my mind to receiving insight, as opposed to focusing on a conditioned type of judgement) and the list goes on when it comes to what's out there to meditate on. I find, it's so important to share life with people who meditate on some of the same things we do, otherwise you're surrounded by people who say stuff like 'Why are you wasting your time on that?!' or 'I don't know why you wonder about that person's behavior when they basically just an a-hole'. Hmmm, the amount of people who can get in our way of us naturally just being our self 🙂 While it's good to be grounded, some folk can really have a way of bringing us down, without us even realising at times. Good to have people around us who are looking to vibe with us at the same level. You know, those 'go to' people, when things get a little too challenging.

Wondering if you have any of those 'go to' people in your life.

🙂

[Guest_630]

Hi there,
You are right I feel emotionally exhausted, after so long being the one helping others I now have no energy left for myself.

Maybe some music will motivate me.

[Guest_4643]

Hey there.

I'm really sorry I wasn't around, I was trying to sleep at the time although I was struggling like usual to.

I'm sorry about that person. Are you ok now?

[Guest_630]

Hi there,
No need to be sorry, you need to get sleep when you can.
Its a tough day for me today. Im being gentle with myself and staying in bed, hope for a better tomorrow.

[Guest_4643]

Thank you, and I'm sorry to hear that. Anything I can do?

[Guest_630]

Hey again,
Thats kind of you, I am a bit better tonight and tomorow is another day. I watched a movie called Pay it forward, it was quite good but had a sad ending so not the best choice.
It is a help to not feel so alone.

[Guest_4643]

You're welcome, that's what I'm here for

[therising]

Hi Guest_630

Raising others can definitely get exhausting. Sometimes it's like you can't feel yourself gradually draining of energy until, bamm, you hit near zero levels and think 'What the heck happened there?! Why am I suddenly feeling so low?' While I've found the following a potentially depressing question to ask at times, it is a significant question in the way of recognising how we are cared for: 'Who raises the raiser (of others)?' The first time I gave great thought to this question, it presented an epiphany of sorts. It wasn't the fact that some in my life weren't making a significant difference, it was more so the fact that I wasn't triggering others to raise me when I needed it. So...I began triggering people and found some interesting responses among family and friends.

When I ask the question of others 'If given the chance, how would you raise me in this moment?', I gain insight into their nature. A couple of people I know will typically say 'I don't know' and then just leave it at that. Mmmm, thanks for that. Some will say 'I don't know. How do you want me to raise you or lift your spirits?' By the way, if I knew, I would do it myself. Only a few will think hard about what would really make all the difference to me and they set about making that difference. I always feel that difference. It's amazing how you can be surrounded by people who have the power to make a difference to you but only a few will ever accept the challenge of making that difference. I bet you're the sort of person who does make that difference to others. You're like a light for them, a guide of sorts. This makes you pretty special, indeed 🙂

It's amazing how we can go from 'Why am I not worth the effort' to 'Damn right I'm worth the effort. Why are others so lazy when it comes to making it?' Imagine if folk around us all said 'We have to look after the light, that guide, the one who serves us so beautifully. We must care for the light and always make sure she/he is energised, no matter what this requires of us'.

Never doubt your brilliance in this world, just because others don't know how to take care of it. You will feel when others raise that brilliance in you. You will feel it in a smile they trigger, in a kind word that touches your soul, in an act of service that brings you to life. These are the people who raise us, the ones who make all the difference. I've found the challenge becomes about recognising exactly who those people are in our life.

🙂