Hi ws
I think you're a legend. Sounds like everything and everyone is draining you. Do you kind of feel like this is the case? Could this be the reason for making errors in judgement or the lack of concentration?
I recall my days in depression where there was a lot of self chastisement in the way of not measuring up and not being able to find direction. These days I now see this for what it really is - I was never given the life skills required for higher self esteem. I was never given the skills that come with naturally being able to find direction. In fact, there are possibly thousands of life skills when it comes to 'going with the flow' which we are never given.
Whilst my parents gave me important skills (through their example) like the ability to recognise the need for compassion, charity, honesty, kindness and so on, what I wish they'd spent the most time on is 'The masterful art of rising through challenge'. How could they possibly pass on what they were not taught? Basically, we inherit a lack of skill from the generations before us. Then, we beat our self up for not being able to live a carefree or fulfilling life. My 81yo mum beats herself up a little for not passing on the skill of rising through challenge. My response to her 'You never knew it but now you do, so start practicing'. It's never too late to learn. She's actually enjoying raising herself through a lot of little challenges. This is helping her rise above the mental lows that can come with aging.
It helps to have someone by our side who can help us with life skills and help us in growing our consciousness. Sounds strange but I spent a lot of years raising myself (through acquiring key pieces of knowledge) to get to this point. I'm 49. Better late than never. Consider speaking to your GP about medicare funded mental health care. Also, it may pay to spend s little time on the internet researching stuff like 'How to naturally raise your energy levels in depression'. Manipulating our own energy (chemistry and natural) is also a skill not many of us are taught. By the way, with the massive build up of energy that can come with anxiety, learning how to exhaust it through breath control might also prove self empowering.
Keep in mind, when others don't know how to rise to a challenge (anger management, how to motivate someone who's feeling low, recognising the importance of showing up in someone's life) we can easily take it personally. It pays to raise their consciousness.
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