Geez. Where to start. I won't bore you, but I will introduce myself in 30 points - one for every year of living with mental illness. I was a public servant for so long and old writing habits are hard to break, so point form it is.
1. I'm 50, but feeling older.
2. Lived with some form of depression, anxiety, OCD and BP for close to 30 years. Maybe even Borderline PD. Dunno.
3. Self-diagnosed. Doctors and so-called professionals haven't been able to help me.
4. Solo-mum of one child for past 12 years. 100% single and will remain that way.
5. Always worked, but have had probably 30 jobs in 33 years. Always getting bored or getting sacked.
6. Angry 95% of the time. The other 5%? I'm on top of the world.
7. Anxious about so many things. Food. Bills. Child. Car. Pokies. Sleep. My Face. My fat belly. etc etc
8. Two days without a shower is commonplace.
9. Not the best example for my daughter, but I try.
10. One addiction. Gambling. Provides me with a form of escapism.
11. Prefer to associate with four-legged creatures.
12. I hide behind humour. Could easily have been a comic.
13. Not currently medicated. Nothing seems to work. Tired of being a zombie from meds.
14. Hate the way I look. Used to be hot. 😉
15. Suicidal thoughts? Yeah, but I won't ever do it.
16. Serial complainer. Mainly about customer service.
17. Could I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder? Some days I wonder. Started this thread title with "Me", so maybe huh?
18. Overweight. 90kg. Was 68kg when fully pregnant and now I'm 30 kg heavier.
19. Worked as an editor for years, but now I won't even pick up a book or read a sentence without jumping forward.
20. No hobbies. At. All.
21. Eat crap food. All. The. Time.
22. False teeth upper and lower. True.
23. No verbal filter. Swear like a drunken sailor.
24. Messy car. Messy house. Messy hair. Messy life.
25. Argue with people a lot. No real friends. Not one.
26. Talker. Talk, talk, talk, that's all I do. Talk over people.
27. Perfectionist tendencies.
28. Humans who don't understand mental illness annoy me no end.
29. First time on a forum.
30. Please. Like. Me. (Yep, have a constant need to be "liked").
Thank you for reading.
Galileo
