Me in 30 Quick Points.

[Galileo]

Geez. Where to start. I won't bore you, but I will introduce myself in 30 points - one for every year of living with mental illness. I was a public servant for so long and old writing habits are hard to break, so point form it is.

1. I'm 50, but feeling older.

2. Lived with some form of depression, anxiety, OCD and BP for close to 30 years. Maybe even Borderline PD. Dunno.

3. Self-diagnosed. Doctors and so-called professionals haven't been able to help me.

4. Solo-mum of one child for past 12 years. 100% single and will remain that way.

5. Always worked, but have had probably 30 jobs in 33 years. Always getting bored or getting sacked.

6. Angry 95% of the time. The other 5%? I'm on top of the world.

7. Anxious about so many things. Food. Bills. Child. Car. Pokies. Sleep. My Face. My fat belly. etc etc

8. Two days without a shower is commonplace.

9. Not the best example for my daughter, but I try.

10. One addiction. Gambling. Provides me with a form of escapism.

11. Prefer to associate with four-legged creatures.

12. I hide behind humour. Could easily have been a comic.

13. Not currently medicated. Nothing seems to work. Tired of being a zombie from meds.

14. Hate the way I look. Used to be hot. 😉

15. Suicidal thoughts? Yeah, but I won't ever do it.

16. Serial complainer. Mainly about customer service.

17. Could I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder? Some days I wonder. Started this thread title with "Me", so maybe huh?

18. Overweight. 90kg. Was 68kg when fully pregnant and now I'm 30 kg heavier.

19. Worked as an editor for years, but now I won't even pick up a book or read a sentence without jumping forward.

20. No hobbies. At. All.

21. Eat crap food. All. The. Time.

22. False teeth upper and lower. True.

23. No verbal filter. Swear like a drunken sailor.

24. Messy car. Messy house. Messy hair. Messy life.

25. Argue with people a lot. No real friends. Not one.

26. Talker. Talk, talk, talk, that's all I do. Talk over people.

27. Perfectionist tendencies.

28. Humans who don't understand mental illness annoy me no end.

29. First time on a forum.

30. Please. Like. Me. (Yep, have a constant need to be "liked").

Thank you for reading.

Galileo

[Quercus]

Hi Galileo and welcome!

I like your introduction it was funny and my goodness did I need the laugh today so thank you. You're right you have a fantastic sense of humour.

Well you're in the right place... We all understand mental illness being there ourselves. Hope to hear more from you feel free to join in on the conversation wherever you like. The more the merrier.

Welcome to the forums, I look forward to hearing more of your story (ah dot points are great easy to follow 😊).

[Galileo]

Well hello Quercus, and thank you for your kind words.

Quercus? That's an interesting name. I like it. Is it Kazakhstani? French? Perhaps Gaelic?

Funny? I don't think so. You see, I logged on this morning and before this sentence gets way too long like all the sentences when I'm arguing with people over the phone or talking to them over a counter in the shop you know those times when you don't have a fullstop in sight and don't let them talk because it's all about me, me, me and they are all stupid and I am always right and get out of my way I'm talking right now. Shut up!

OK. Breath. Dot. Points. Again.

1. I hate it when people tell you to breeeeeath. Like. What? I'm not holding my frookin breath you fool. I'm breathing. Don't tell me HOW to breath. Breeeeaaaath. Just breeeeaaaaath. MEH!
2. Just got up. Fed the four-legged ones. Made a coffee. Rummaged through the dirty kitchen for a clean mug. Thought about my really crappy life. Washed a dirty cup. Such. Effort. Required.
3. Hate doing the school drop-off. All those skinny women in their luxury 4WDs, wearing their gym gear, no work because hubby has a rich job, ready to go meet the girl-pals for a laaaaaattteeeee. Tsk. Can't. Watch.
4. Logged on. Didn't think my post would get published.
5. I thought, if it does get published, it'd be edited in some way.
6. Was surprised when it was published. Great! These people are nice!
7. Found the blue dot/number point option in the toolbar above and was ... Over. The. Moon
8. Am suffering from the dreaded lurgy. Please excuse the coughing and green stuff all over my keyboard.
9. Made an appointment to see someone through some mob I found on Beyond Blue page. Oh, look! That's you guys! Early June. Can't wait. Thank you for your helpful resources.
10. Please. Like. Me.
11. Look like absolute crapola most mornings, but today is worse than usual. Seriously. Get this. Saw my reflection in the kitchen window and thought it was a freaky zombie looking back at me. It. Was. Me.
12. Didn't get scared. Why? Coz I have no feelings. Zombie-like you could say. But I'm not even on meds! So how does that work? Meds can sometimes plug the emotion (in my case they did in the past), but I'm not on meds and STILL have no emotion. Hhhm. Breeeaaath.
13. Had another "fight" with a call-centre operator yesterday. Geez. He was so smug. I asked to be put through to his team leader and he refused. O. M. G. I nearly burst at the seams from anger. Breeeeeaaaaath.
14. Had to take Miss 12 to dance yesterday and be around "normal" people. It was tough. You know. The obligatory smile. The courteous "hello". Small talk. Pretending. Pretending. Always pretending. 88
15. What the????? My cat just jumped up for a cuddle and he stepped on the number keypad. Of all the numbers he could have pressed. It was eighty-bloomin' eight. Look at the end of point 13 above.
16. 88. Two faaaat ladies. Bingo. 88.
17. I can't think anymore. Why 88? Is it because even my cat knows I'm overweight? How did his big furrry foot get between the 7 and the 9, and below the forward slash / and above the 5, to press the 8. Not once, but twice.
18. Ok. Breeeaaaaath. Breaaaaaath.
19. Any. What's your story? Are you a mod on meds (moderator edit expected here), or just saying hello for the fun of it to make me feel like someone actually read my 30 dot points?
20. Anyway. The next 12-16 hours of what I like to call "loser life" awaits me.

Until next time.

Galileo​

[Guest_128]

Hey there,

Did I say you could write about me?

kidding😂

I like you,thanks for posting your awesome!

Have a nice day

Later

[Quercus]

Haha yep 9 names I'm with you 100%.

Galileo thank you for making my day. 9 names later is right. You are pretty awesome!

I especially liked point 11. Laughed out loud. Reminds me how I feel about myself. Since being put on immune suppressants my acne takes ages to heal. I look like a meth addict who's been clawing at my face. Who knew you could have acne at 32. Stuff that. So yeah the zombie in the mirror that's me ☺

Nope not a mod. Yep on meds. I wrote because you seem like my sort of person. Real. Honest. I like how you write. My thread is in the long term support section. If you search usernames you can find people's threads. Don't worry about it unless you feel like it though.

Quercus is the botannical name of an oak tree. My favourite. So latin I suppose. Why did you choose Galileo? I like your avatar. Is that your chicken? They are awesome pets. I had a silky bantam before my german shepherd ate her (not a joke) she was such a funny little girl. She'd sit on hubby's shoulder and peer out at the world.

Anyway hope your day improves. Coffee helps. Stuff the supermums I think. That's just a facade to impress I've found.

[Guest_128]

Hey Quercus,

Sorry but I laughed about your chook,my dark humour.

Dont talk about meth addict I've got no top teeth ATM and suck on my inside cheeks.(from mess)

You should get some more chooks,they are funny little buggers. I have 8 and 3 white ducks and a 100 wild ones that I feed and they swim in the dam.

Later

[Quercus]

Sorry 9 names.

You're right I know nothing about meth I shouldn't have said that.

[Guest_128]

Far out was supposed to be mess.

no offence was taken

😷

[Quercus]

No worries ☺ it was still inappropriate.

Oops sorry Galileo we've taken over your thread. What's your view which makes a better pet chickens or ducks?

[Galileo]

Hey Qwarkass and 9 el ninos. No worries! Sorry, been busy with work only to find out my company is winding up and I'm out of work. So sad right now. I'll stay in touch as soon as i find time to scratch my bum.

You folks are so nice.

Galileo

oh, and chooks