It's hard to elaborate when I do not understand what is going on. I feel exhausted all the time. I have shunned public places and making friends. I find it quite exhaustive. I used to go for a walk, but that too I find laborious. I find everything in my life futile. I cannot pinpoint my feelings. I definetly dont feel 100% sadness. But it is something in between sadness, depression and the futility of everything. It is wild. Sometimes I feel like taking my family to a place where no one knows or finds us. When I am working, it is so stressful to keep the image because working as a contractor is the most insecure form of job in the public service.
I do not know what is happening. I will start taking VIT B12 shots this week. My doc thinks it will improve drastically. I feel so insecure in my life, gosh.
