Hello, as you can see I am new and the whole introductory thing via text has never been something I am good at, but perhaps this time I wont make myself seem like some sort of strange person. I guess I'll get into details as to avoid spamming your forums, which I found through a series of questions I posed to google and majority of them were answered by your helpful community members which interested me to have a look at this site, and thus I decided to make a profile here as I believe, or more so hope, that I can find some sort of answer to questions I pose about the state of my mind.
A bit about myself personally, I am twenty two years old and am currently unemployed, though in a trades college which is breaking up my constant weeks of never leaving the house which can only be a positive, or so is what I am told in spite of my attitude towards most things having not shifted but that's probably on my half rather than anything else. I've held a strong, dislike for myself for many years and I believe that my family have known this through my actions, I can only assume this as they give the occasional probing question of my mental state of mind and I can only make the assumption, though they may simply just be checking.
For a long time, I've had the thoughts of going to a GP about possibly getting myself evaluated, though I tend to have panic attacks when I'm in the process of actually talking myself into doing such things but I cannot continue on with having hatred for myself and what I do, nor can these irritating irresponsible thoughts continue to pester me. So, I need to do something about it, and I'm, trying.
Sorry if that's a little, odd but I believe that's everything to know about me to understand what has pushed me here.
Thank you for reading, and I hope to open up a dialogue so that we can discuss, and hopefully help one another.
Have a good night, and enjoy your day.
-LGSky.
