Hello Treading-Water, so glad you have posted. I understand it is difficult to join & open yourself to strangers on an internet forum. Remember, these forums are anonymous,& monitored & moderated, to protect us. I've met some very caring & kind people here, & have found support when I've needed.
Welcome, & know you are not alone. I'm not sure what the actual proportion is, but there are quite a number of people here, who have been living with both physical & mental health conditions, often for many years. & you've also been through various life-changing events. These are sure to have taken a toll.
It's great to have a supportive husband. How much are you able to talk together about how you are feeling & how he can help? I think, if you leave him guessing, he's only going to feel, perhaps, frustrated, helpless, confused, to name a few possible emotions he may be experiencing.
Take your time. You don't have to answer anything you don't want to. You might prefer to sit back & think about the various responses, or what you might read on other threads, instead. How you use this space is your choice.
I think Geoff has a good idea, to ask for a review of medications, so hopefully you can find meds that don't leave you spacey. I couldn't advise more than that.
Warm regards,
mmMekitty
