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[JB_Vic]

Hi everyone

So why am I here? Short version have been riding a bit of a rollercoaster for months (and to be completely honest for a few years), except until recently the good times were lasting longer than the low times. Things have been on the way down for a couple of weeks now which has resulted in me finally hitting rock bottom after suffering a couple of anxiety attacks late last week, to sitting on the floor today crying because a fence which was broken by builders next door, banging on the wall in the wind. Saying it, it seems like such an insignificant thing, but it is what has finally pushed me to the point where that and a combination of everything else has finally broken me.

[Ggrand]

Hello JB,

Welcome to BB Forums,

Im sorry your struggling so hard at the moment.

The rollercoasterbof emotions, I'm sure a lot of people here can relate to that and I'm certainly one of them.

You sound like you've been doing it hard for a couple of years, I was on the rollercoaster , and it so hard to know where your headspace will be in an hour or tomorrow, What I did was I went to my Dr and told her how I was feeling, and with my Drs help, we started a MHCP, I saw a psychologist, got some meds, and it's helped, Maybe you could try speaking to your GP and get some help..

Sometimes the smallest thing can be the last straw..

Take a look around the forums, we have some really good threads on anxiety that could help you.

your not alone, you can come back here any time to talk. When ever you feel to, There will be a few more people coming in to welcome you and offer suggestions,

Take care of yourself,

Grandy

[Peppermintbach]

Hi JB_Vic,

I hope it’s alright for me to extend a second welcome to you here 🙂

I’m glad Grandy has responded so kindly to you. I agree with her comment that “Sometimes the smallest thing can be the last straw...” I feel, we can only take so much, after all and you have clearly reached your upper limit...

You seem completely overwhelmed and emotionally exhausted. It can’t be an easy place to be at all. I feel for you.

I wonder if you have any personal (e.g. friends, family, etc) and/or professional support. It’s just you sound so low and I feel support can often make a huge difference...

And of course, there is also the forums. You’re always most welcome to come back here and write whenever you like. I feel there are many compassionate people on the forums who would like to get to know you more and offer support.

Caring thoughts,

Pepper

[JB_Vic]

Thank you Grandy and Pepper for the welcome and the advice. It was really appreciated!

I took on your advice and went and saw my GP today. He has given me some meds and now for the waiting game as I was told by the pharmacist that they will take a few weeks to kick in.

My situation has probably been made worse as I am extremely introverted and have very few friends, although it would have taken a major crash for me to have open up to any of them. I did think about reaching out to one of them, but I just couldn't do it, mainly because I just didn't know what to say or interrupt their weekend. I even said to my GP today that I didn't know what to say!

Thanks again for your help

[Ggrand]

Hello JB,

Im just checking in to see how your going with the Medes and referral to a psych.

I hope everything turns out okay for you, I'm like you in the way I have a lot of difficulty in talking face to face with people, but here on the forums I seem to be okay, if you need/want to talk please feel free to do so.

Please be gentle on yourself.

Kind thoughts,

Grandy

[JB_Vic]

I just wanted to thank everyone for the advice and listening back in March. Sorry it has taken so long, I honestly thought I had back then! Anyway I was originally going to post an update, so here it is.

Things have improved considerably. I have now been on the meds for 9 months, have seen a psychologist and have put in place strategies to deal with my anxiety and things we have identified as triggers. I still have days or moments but use the strategies I’ve learnt to try and cope.

Thanks again and all the best for 2019.

[Peppermintbach]

Hi JB_Vic,

It’s lovely to hear from you again. Thank you so much for thinking of us, and for the update.

Please don’t even worry about apologising, because there’s nothing to be “sorry” for. We’re just happy to hear from you 🙂

It made me smile to hear that things have improved. It sounds like you have put in a lot of hard work to improve your own mental health. I feel very proud of you, and I hope you feel the same way.

I also love how you’re taking your down days in your stride. I feel you have a wonderful attitude and approach.

Thank you so much, and all the best in 2019 to you too! If you ever feel like writing in again, please don’t hesitate. That being said, there’s obviously no obligation or pressure. Only if and when you feel up to it.

Kind thoughts to you today,

Pepper