Dear Sasha,
I am so pleased to hear that you get along well with your ex-husband and if you thought of ringing him he sounds as if he is supportive to you, that's really great. Good to know that your son has somewhere to go as well if you did need to go to hospital at all.
I am glad you had that medicine handy and that you took half. I hope that is helping. Sometimes just the act of taking it can help.
I am glad being here and knowing someone is here with you is a comfort as well.
Do you feel that your intense anxiety and tears are to do with the ending of your relationship or just everything spiralling down? You don't have to answer. Maybe you're not even sure. I know when I'm feeling out of control I sometimes don't totally know what it is.
Something that has helped me many times to bring myself back a little bit of calm is to stand barefoot on grass. Just the cool, solid feeling of the earth beneath me can help, and I sometimes visualise myself drawing up cool, calm energy from the earth through my feet and imagine it gently seeping into my body and mind. Laying down on the grass and breathing slowly, looking up at the sky has helped me too.
Other things that help me are getting into the garden and doing things, chopping, digging, planting, whatever. It's probably the connection to the earth again for me, I just find it calming and healing.
Going for walks, long walks.
Playing with my dogs.
Sometimes I go sit on a bench in my chook pen and watch the girls scratching around, not a care in the world. Admittedly this occasionally, when things have been really grim, has made me wish I was one of those chooks. Sad but true.
Sometimes a shower can help.
I don't know if any of these ideas might sound ok for you.
How are you feeling now Sasha?
🌻birdy
