Hello

[Nowhere]

OK not sure what to say but have really struggled since separation 7 years ago..my ex left me for my best friend of 20 years my ex accused me in court of inappropriate behaviour with my daughter, proven to be false allegation but at the time destroyed me...the financial ruin seperation caused. i feel i will never recover from that aspect,going from owning two houses to renting a shit hole.I have become extremely cynical of people in general and as a result have no social circle or support network...I was initially diagnosed with depression which in time changed to anxiety...I still suffer from anxiety but is manageable . I am registered nurse soPartenavia P68C is out of maintenance and went with Rascal for a test flight before he takes it to Friendly Beaches for the summer.
Haven’t flown a twin for years and first time in a P68. Partenavia is very stable and a nice plane to fly.
Fun day away from a keyboard. I believe I am quite self aware , but to be honest I feel broken in so many ways which I don't want to affect my children's outlook on life, I would like them to be happy and positive about life...I know I'm cynical to protect myself but don't know how to change and still protect myself from dishonest and horrible humans... Sorry for grammar and spelling.

[Nowhere]

Part of this makes no sense, I think it was on clipboard and pasted accidently..

[quirkywords]

Hello Nowhere and welcome to the forum,

Thanks for explaining those extra words- I gathered that is what happened. Your grammar and spelling are fine.

You have definitely had a hard time over the years. Just having your wife leave you for your best friend who be hard enough but then to have false accusations, and financial ruin. Are you working as a nurse?

It is good you have an insight into your feelings and do not want to affect your children's outlook in life.

Have you ever spoken to a counsellor about your feelings.

Also there is beyondblue support service you can ring for a chat 1300224636

I can understand why you would be cynical and not willing to trust other people but having no support network is not desirable. Obviously learning to trust other people will take time but there are caring people out there.

Thanks for sharing you story.

Quirky

[demonblaster]

Hi Nowhere

That would be soul destroying, very sorry for your pain

Agree with Quirky it takes time & yes would be hard but there are good people out there who can be trusted but in your own time

Yeah being self aware is a big help in life let alone in recovery.

Maybe in your own time you may feel you'd like to join regular social activities, I think it's important to have peope around us at least some of the time. New friends new life.

Wishing you all the best for new year

[geoff]

hello Nowhere, I'm absolutely sure the inappropriate behaviour that was unfounded would have shocked the hell out of you, plus your daughter must be devastated if she knew that this accusation was brought up in court.

You learn quite quickly how to recognise deceitful people once you have been bitten, I've certainly been taken for a lot of money, so your defense mechanisms start to build up, plus once you have overcome depression you learn so much along the way from what people, maybe your friends or family, have to say and whether keep their word, or are honest to you.

Firstly your wife has left you, you're now living in a tin shed and virtually have to start again, that's what I had to do, now my 2 sons are better off and my direction in life has changed completely.

Take your time and let it happen naturally. Geoff.

[Minxi]

Hello nowhere

Mind if I ask you a question? A guy I was dating (who I have known and adored for almost 20 years now) broke up with me on xmas eve. It sounds like your situation and his are quite similar... court/custody issues, financial problems... wife left him for someone else then tried to put an AVO against him (court threw it out). You said you feel broken and that's what he said to me too. Says he has nothing to give me and can't give me what I want. Would that be how you feel as well about entering into a new relationship? I'm still struggling to figure out whether it's genuine on his part or just an excuse. I'm so confused... I'm not ugly, I know he is attracted to me and I am successful career wise but that seems to make him feel even more inadequate even though I don't care that he's poor. I thought he wanted me and it is hurting badly. As selfish as it is, I am hoping it is the depression making him feel this way and not because I'm just not good enough. Please hang in there.

minxi