Hello I am new

[Jlee_lily]

Hi all..

Im new here, I’ve never seemed help before. I guess this is my first step. I’m not 100% myself and I haven’t been for a while now.. has anyone else experienced so much sadness but not knowing why? My life I know isn’t bad.. and I have t gone through anything traumatic. But I find I am not myself. I cry historically over minor things, I think very negative and I find I self sabotage my relationship and cause arguments for no reason. I don’t know what to do. I’ve lost my happy self and I feel like I’ve been trapped in a vicious cycle for such a long time now.

[Giraffe]

I just wanted to say hi and let you know you are welcome here.

[smallwolf]

Hi and welcome to beyond blue.

I have previously said something similar to you. I should not feel like this, nothing bad has happened etc

But that is also our normal. Some things that are commonplace for me others have said is bullying. In reading others stories we might see parts of ourselves.

So... whatever is on your mind, feel free to write it here. We will respond without judgement and with compassion.

Peace to you

[geoff]

Hello Jlee_lily, and a warm welcome to the forums.

What you have said to us, is absolutely, there are so many different reasons why all of a sudden we begin to feel this way, whether it's slowly been building up and initially, we don't realise it's happening and believing we're only having an 'off day' and be better tomorrow, but tomorrow may not improve, so deeper and deeper we become more upset or perhaps depressed, but this could happen in many different forms of mental illness, but we may not actually know why this we feel this way.

This can cause us to cry over the smallest outcome or even an ad on TV, maybe even a cartoon and can't explain to anybody the reason why we feel this way, we just can't provide any reason and actually, we don't even care at all.

This vicious cycle produces negative thoughts that once before we had never thought of and may only keep multiplying as this illness takes over you, that's why we need help to try and understand why and how this could ever begin, so please seek medical help as well as staying on the forums.

Hope to hear back from you.

Geoff.

[bitter_biscuit]

Hello Jlee_lily!

Don't worry you aren't alone, I too haven't been feeling myself lately and somedays I begin to lose faith in my ability to overcome this and return to my previous state. I also haven't gone through anything overly traumatic and my life is pretty stable, but lately I've just been feeling so anxious about some physical symptoms I'm feeling and depressed about living... I feel as though the future holds nothing for me.

But I am still determined to see things to the end, so I'm going to go see a psychologist to hopefully sort things out and I hope you continue fighting as well 🙂 Please continue yo use this forum should you ever feel the need to voice out your thoughts/ feelings.

~ Biscuit