figuring things out

[SmashyYaBox87]

hi all, 

i'm not in to doing this express yourself sort of thing, but i've always been misbehaving and i'm 37yrs old with a family. life is good, yet i self destruct. I go from full devotion and focus to absolute self destruct. alcohol doesn't help. sex drive goes through the roof, wife says she doesn't want to got to hospital because of it. i become obsessed with every hobby. i drink too much . i'm protective of my kids so much as to keep them away from a disturbed family that i was brought up with. reckon it would be good to see how other people cope or if im just being a sook 😉

[Sophie_M]

Hey there SmashyYaBox87,
Thank you for sharing here and welcome to our online community. We are so grateful that you decided to reach out here today as we know it can be really tough to do this for the first time. It’s a great step to have taken, and we’ll be here for you on this journey.  
 
Have you reached out to anyone about this? This could be a conversation with your GP or with any existing mental health support, or a chat with a loved one who you feel will be supportive in helping you to change this behaviour. It sounds like it would be really good to discuss this with are our friends at Counselling Online, who have some really good resources on Making a Change, here. There’s also the Beyond Blue helpline on 1300 22 4636, or on webchat if you’d prefer to speak to counsellor there. Our kind and understanding counsellors can talk this through with you and help you to figure out how you can get some support on the path to sobriety.  Other community members have previously mentioned Daybreak, the app, to be a useful resource. You can find out more about this here.  This is a judgment-free space, so please feel free to share, knowing that you'll be met with understanding. Hopefully a few of our welcoming community members will pop by soon to welcome you and offer some words of support and advice.  Kind regards,  Sophie M