Hello,
First time posting so thanks for taking the time to read.
I've been out of work longer than i would have liked to (would prefer not to be unemployed at all). As a result i will be about to commence a 'work for the dole' scheme where i have to spend 20 odd hours a week helping out at some not-for-profit organisation with people i don't know, whilst i understand that this was always a possibility i am now feeling a few emotions about it actually happening. Whilst i have been trying to get a job i have become a bit tired of getting "thank you but no thanks" replies and sometimes nothing at all. It left me feeling a bit depressed about getting nothing and the longer it's gone on i slowly (probably wrongly) got used to it. I've been studying a course online and it's been tougher than i could have imagined. Whilst the course doesn't apply for 'work for the dole' it now means i will have less time to study - just the thought of losing time for study has me feeling nervous. i have no doubt i will complete it - just longer than i would have liked.
I'm embarrassed as to what has become of my life, i knew being unemployed would be tough but what i'm about to face for this next period of my life has me feeling anxious as i'm nowhere near where i want to be in life. I want to be happy in life and i'm not even close. I'm at an age where i should be well advanced in a career and personally in friendship and love. Money is tight and once the bills get paid there is very little left, having a job would give me a big sigh of relief just so i can have a bit of spending money but it's so tough to get a job.
I'm dreading the next week as i don't know what to expect, not having enough time to study is giving me stress and the hope of getting a job let alone a job interview just continues to fade. I want to do well in life and at the moment it just doesn't seem like a possibility.
Thanks for taking the time to have a read.
