Trust BROKEN

[TheBigBlue]

I have been seeing my current psychologist for about 2 years now. We had a good relationship. She knows I struggle with opening up to people & this has been a topic of discussion between us for a long time.

Earlier this week, I was really struggling, to the point of ******** ideation, so I sent her text message explaining how I was feeling & that I thought someone should know.

She did not reply, but today she has sent a text to my partner requesting my parents contact details. She has “threatened” to contact my parents previously & I asked her to not go down that path as 1 of my parents is involved in my childhood trauma & I don’t want them involved at all. I also told her that the thought of my parents knowing makes the situation worse as I would do anything to keep my issues private from them.

i feel so upset & riddled with anxiety right now. I’m ok with her reaching out to my boyfriend & understand her reasons why, but using that threat of the parents makes me scared & annoyed. I even took my sister to a session one time. She could ask for my sisters contact details, why my parents???!!?! I’m a middle aged woman, I don’t see how my parents should be involved when I have previously asked them NOT to be.

Anyway, feeling so scared & alone right now, I didn’t know where else to reach out 😥

[Guest9337]

G'day TheBigBlue.

I had heaps of trouble sleeping last night too, ended up calling a help line and that helped somewhat.

Maybe get yourself into bed one night and give a help line a call, chat for a while then try to sleep.

The help lines I've used can only chat briefly (up to 30min) and have all seemed like good people - all women actually too.

[TheBigBlue]

HELP!

i think I am going to have a nervous breakdown.

I texted psychologist 07/07/21 - no reply

i texted again on 14/07/21 - no reply

Today I called her. No answer, voicemail did not mention anything about her being off work, so I left a voice message for her asking her to call me.

just now I was on Facebook & I saw her work Facebook page has been updated within the last hour.

I’m absolutely terrified she has decided to cease working with me. Nothing like that was discussed, but I feel completely abandoned & like I am being treated unfairly. If i could get in touch with her I might be able to clarify all of this but I cannot reach her.

I’m not sleeping, I’m stressed if I need to find a new psychologist, I’m totally confused why she is not contacting me, it’s honestly getting a bit overwhelming.

The only other contact I have for her is email. This is the only way I have not yet tried. I don’t want to inundate her with contacts as I don’t know what is going on with her work wise so I won’t email today, but I’m not sure how long I can wait.

I’m so STRESSED 😥

[Sophie_M]

Hi TheBigBlue, 

It sounds like you have something very important to discuss with your psychologist that can't wait. It's understandable that this can be nerve racking for you as you see them update something on facebook and not replying to you. Do you have another session booked with them that's coming up. If you really need to discuss something important there are services for you to contact. We recognise that it wont be as convienent as a worker who already knows your story, however it might help to ease your anxiety.

You can call Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals. 

We are here to support you if you need us and we are always happy to help. 

 

[Guest9337]

Hello TheBigBlue,

I am here to HELP you!

I suggest writing your feelings down and email them to the psychologist... because, at the very least you will writing those feelings out of you, and secondly action feels better than having to restrain oneself during high stress, thirdly, even if the psychologist doesn't email reply, you will have worked forward by sharing the email and when psychologist does get some time, they will read it and understand your situation better.

I'm still here listening.

[TheBigBlue]

Hi Sophie,

I don’t have another appointment with the psychologist because I can’t get in touch with her to book it! I usually have weekly appointments & it’s now been 2 weeks.

Her last text message to me (received 07/07/21) said she would get back to me with dates/times & now she is uncontactable.

im going insane because she initially said she wouldn’t treat me if I didn’t provide my parents contact & she requested my boyfriend contacted her. He did so & she said she will trust he is acceptable to be the emergency contact. She never said she didn’t want to see me, but it’s the feeling I’m getting.

if she doesn’t want to work with me, just freaking tell me so I can or my life out.

I really hope she is not doing this, but to just leave someone hanging is cruel & unfair.

My anxiety has gone haywire, my meds don’t seem to be helping. My heart has been racing ALL day, I struggled to get out of bed today, I struggled with my job today (could barely concentrate), I didn’t even shower & am in fact still in my pyjamas.

D&G, thanks for listening. It’s nice to know someone cares

[Sophie_M]

Dear The big Blue,

We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community this morning and are so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. Times like this can definitely get overwhelming . We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. 

We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
Keep checking back in with us whenever you feel up to it. 
 

[LJpd81]

Hope you're going okay and I hope you've heard back from your psychologist. Even an sms from her isn't difficult. I do hope you know more now. Thinking of you

[TheBigBlue]

I FINALLY got an sms today.

All it said was “things were hectic” with the Covid lockdown. And then she offered me a date which won’t work as I’m working that day.

Anyway, I replied but hen she replies, who knows. At least I know she isn’t trying to get rid of me.

I will sleep better tonight 🤣

[LJpd81]

I'm so glad you got a reply. I hope you keep us updated 😘

[Guest9337]

Yes it is nice to know someone cares.

Have a great day.