Hi everyone,
I'm new to the forums and I have been having a hard time the last few days as I have gone cold turkey off my SNRI. I think (hope) I am through the worst of it.
I had been on an increasing dose of ssris for probably e a year and a half before switching to an SNRI as it was making me too tired. I felt great for a week going off the SSRI whilst getting accustomed to the SNRI, then it all went downhill once it built up in my body from there and I could barely get myself out of bed for work, felt like my IQ dropped 30 points and could not get motivated.
One of my HUGE issues, is that no one has actually diagnosed me with anything. I went through the whole process of psychology, medications before finally being referred to a psychiatrist. I had a young GP who was good at first, but because one day my after maybe 3 sessions my psychologist mentioned BPD to my GP and she stuck with it in the notes as a diagnosis. Issue with that is
1) My psychologist was a counselling psychologist, not clinical. She mention BPD amongst many other possibilities (including referring me to a specialist in female autism spectrum disorders) and we systematically went through many and we both agreed I do not have BPD. She also reiterated she was not qualified to diagnose any disorders.
2) I have had to go to the hospital for my depression a couple of times and seen many members of the CATT teams, who have sat with me extensively and also stated they do not think I have BPD.
3) I have no issue with being labelled BPD, except that I am not and exhibit none of the symptoms, when I first saw my psychologist I had broken up with my partner of 5 years, finished university and was questioning my sexuality amongst other things, possibly leading her to explore the topic of BPD.
Anyway, my GP latched onto this and spread it to my psychiatrist I was referred to. I am no longer seeing that GP as she grossly misinformed me about antidepressants and did not give me a higher dose when the CATT team said I needed at least double what I was on. This has slowed down my treatment, it has taken me 2 years to get to my current point.
So, back to now, my psych has given me a prescription, I am unsure if I should take it or just get off the SSNRI. As I said I have not been diagnosed with anything, not even Bipolar. I have been on drugs so long I dont know what my "control" mood is. Thoughts?
