Hi Ballza,
That is excellent news that you are starting to feel a little better. Capture this moment in your mind, so if you have a day when it starts to slide down hill, you will know you can get out of that mindset. It may take time and a lot of effort. It does for me some days!
Learning how to deal with feelings and thoughts of anger, frustration, grief, shame or what ever can be difficult. They are not words and concepts that are generally brought up in every day discussion nor accepted easily.
I am a Country Fire Service Volunteer. Before heading to training one night I was so angry, frustrating, agitated and cranky I didn't know how to release any of that.
At the station we had an old car we used to practise car rescues scenarios. I put on all my protective CFS uniform, grabbed a tool off the truck that is generally used to rip into cars to help get people out, and went crazy on that car wreck until I was exhausted.
My male colleagues were too scared to come near me that night. Ha. Ha. I scared the hell out of the guy living next to the station as well!
Gardening when possible is my release. Some people go to the gym, have a punching bag in the garage or go for a run or walk. Trying to control those thoughts before they grow into a volcano helps as does writing it down and getting it out of my head.
For some people it is as simple as having a rubber band type thingy around their wrist, they ping it when they become stressed or anxious and it helps to remind them to calm down again.
Regarding the photos on your phone, that is excellent.
Pushing on through is excellent, we also need to build up techniques that will help us along the way.
Cheers to you for making progress. From Dools
