I posted a while back about my husband who has depression - he had a month as an inpatient then we had a months holiday with the kids which went pretty well and now we are all back at home. He is not working but fortunately has income protection so he has taken over house duties and the kids while I continue working my ordinary job and I have taken some casual work on top of that.
I am tiring and losing hope - he is still depressed and angry and thinks he isnt on the right medication. I keep trying to say there is no magic pill, he has entrenched negative thinking and self talk and all this will take time. He does weekly groups and sees a therapist and a psychiatrist regularly. I guess I am going through a bit of a rough spot I feel like the life we once had has been broken, that my husband of many years has gone. I have tried to be supportive and loving over the last year but I feel like I dont know how much longer I can cope. He is so overly sensitive that I have to be really careful how I talk to him, suggestions are taken as criticisms, if i am tired he blames himself, if I am upset its all his fault, I cant really do anything without him interpreting it as relating to him. He doesnt work so he is alone with his thoughts all day while the boys are at school, I try to encourage him that this is a marathon, not a sprint, to do mindfulness and small things each day for his mental health but he just seems so stuck and I cant keep trying to prop him up. I guess I just wanted to get some of this out, its weighing heavily on me as I feel the kids are being impacted now, my oldest son has started negative self talk like his Dad and I thought keeping the family together was a good thing but now im not so sure. thanks for listening
