My gorgeous boyfriend sent me a message that confirmed my worries. He has approached me a couple of times before about needing help but it's hard for him to admit that he's not okay. I have major depression and take various medications including a mood stabiliser. Here's what he wrote:
I'm sorry I've been how I've been the last few weeks. I don't know what it is or even how to describe it. I know I need to do things like clean up inside and outside, do the rest of my presentation, do more resumes, be nicer and more loving to you. I have a list a mile long of things I need to service on my car, there's parts there too but I don't do it. I just feel blah, there's no other way to describe it, there's no motivation to do anything [...] I feel bad but I can't reverse the situation [ ... ] because I have no income. I'm not living I'm just existing, and barely at that. I don't know how to motivate myself to get things done, I have poor time management, I don't know how to fix it. You've been so good to me and I don't deserve it.
ive let him know how much me means to me, we've been through so much and we will be together for the rest of our lives, but I'm worried about him. Being a boy, he is reluctant to see a GP about it. I've put him onto mindfulness training and done my best to help him with as much as I can, but it's not touching the root of his problems.
He is an amazing man who helps anyone and everyone with whatever needs doing. He doesn't realise how smart and professional he is, he definitely sells himself short which is a self esteem issue. His current lack of employment is really draining him, my Centrelink payments have ended as I've finished a bachelors degree and I pay half of the bills his mum makes him pay as a punishment for not finishing uni yet when his younger sister already has a job in mining. I really need a hand with the topic of depression and unemployment and in young men. I Can't stand to see this incredible individual thinking he's useless and getting by on just existing.
