Help needed

[Unsure77]

Hi

i recently walked out on my bi polar fiancé as it got abusive and nasty. I wish I had read Tony's post about the cuppa before doing so, I'm not a confrontational person at all, the is sure I cheated on her which I didn't as she contacted the person and was told the same thing, but still didn't believe either us. She told me she loved me and things would change every time I went back but never did. The last time I went back she hit me again so I walked. It's been nearly three weeks now I haven't heard from her. Her family hate me as they all think I cheated on her, she has told them I am a compulsive liar. I love and miss her so much.

have I made the right decision by leaving, not that I think I will ever see or hear from her again. She is all I have thought about since I left.

[Unsure77]

Morning dng

ive had no response from the text at all not even a nasty email as yet. I am worried I have done the right thing though by trying to contact her with my family and friends.

make sure to make that coffee quietly. Lol

[Unsure77]

I do feel better/relieved I have done so

[Unsure77]

I've been doing a lot of thinking this morning.

i do miss and love her but then I think about all the bad stuff and think why am I bothering.

Or is it just because I'm a person that can't be alone and needs a companion.

[Guest9337]

good morning U77.

Abide in feel better/relieved... we worked hard yesterday, expect light to shine from within yourself today. be thankful to yourself, you are highly valuable.

dng.

[Unsure77]

Thanks dng

i feeling very anxious she has already moved on though

[Guest9337]

When U77 has inclination to, then time spent on our previous work above would be highly valuable for reducing anxiety.

We reduced yesterday, all those questions would reduce again today.

[Unsure77]

Yes and if there is no reply I have my surley.

[Unsure77]

I found a voice recording of when I had hit my all time low last month, it was very confronting listening to it.

[Guest9337]

Morning U77!

I've got a few sad videos of myself too, and of my wife's reactions when I was so sad I was in psychward. Those are very very sad videos I keep but do not look at.

Your confrontation of voice recording is incredible strength, but beware not to carry too heavy a load after so much work recently please.

It's all your metacognitive decision, to engage, approach, background, avoid, ignore, and all the different choices are yours. Remember to balance work, play, rest.

[Unsure77]

I guess I have to come to the realisation that she has moved on and wants no part of me anymore.

i honestly thought I would of heard from her by now from that text.