Would you and how to tell your GP you self harm?

[LJpd81]

Recently I have been self harming. Im not sure if I'm allowed to say how though. Should I tell my doctor? And if I do , how do I tell her? She is quite approachable and lovely. The idea of telling her that I S/H, fills me with so much anxiety! How do I blurt that out? What would she do? I already am booked for 6 psychologist appointments and I have written it down as one of my reasons for attending. Any advice please?

Thanks very much.

[Harpbird]

All good L J , I just really struggle when my daughter takes her 9 month old daughter home after I love her for two days, I think I live through this bub , knowing her bigger brother I could have saved , her mom works and I have her for two days, she is my world , my connection to her is through her sweet angle big brother . Once she goes home I really don’t do well .

[LJpd81]

Is there a way you can see her on another day in the week?

That would be difficult. I bet your daughter appreciates you looking after your granddaughter. How special to spend that time with her. Bet she's super cute

[Harpbird]

Oh she is super cute and I am a ganma who is very interactive and gets on the floor ( no matter how much it hurts me) kids love the interaction it’s great for them. I will be there for all my grandies, but lil miss has part angel in her and that’s why she is just that extra bit special, oh I am in so much pain when she is gone as I won’t take meds while I care for me grandchildren, ever, and in so much pain when they go is when the pain and guilt hits me, why not SH , it’s my punishment for not watching over that bub properly.

[Sophie_M]

Dear Harpbird,
We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community this morning and are so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. Times like this can definitely get overwhelming. We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. 

We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
Keep checking back in with us whenever you feel up to it. 

[Harpbird]

Thank you Sophie,

but it’s my punishment for not looking out for my angel, why why didn’t I call the ambulance? The guilt just eats holes in my heart

[LJpd81]

I hope you're ok. I am sure it was an accident and nothing you could do. I hope talking through with your psychologist will help. Here if you want to chat x

[Harpbird]

Yeh today I am ok, how are you doing?

i have done the school drop off, just sat for my morning coffee and have some pant to up the hems on for a friend.
I did S H late last night . But today is a good day I will be occupied all day.

[LJpd81]

I started the day feeling low and sad. I S/H 3 times today at work.

I was ok for abit, then felt sad again this afternoon

[Sophie_M]

Hey  LJpd81,

Thanks for reaching out here again tonight. 

We're so sorry to hear how low and sad you feel. Having to work on days like this can be so draining. Did anything happen (thoughts or interactions) at work to cause these urges to self-harm? 

We'd really encourage you to speak with our Support Service. We’re available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEDT on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of our professional mental health counsellors at our Support Service will give you support and point you in the right direction for help in your area.

Keep updating on how you're doing LJ.

[LJpd81]

Nothing specific, just felt sad. I can't explain it. I s/h to feel better.

I'm ok now.

My next psychologist appointment is Thursday.

Thanks so much