Wish I wasn’t here

[Guest_20491911]

I’ve worked all my life and have nothing I never partied or wasted money but did have horses I brought up four children and now have four grandchildren

i I can’t work due health reasons my life is over I’m going end up homeless I have nothing maybe 50 k in assets no super I don’t know what to do 

also caring person I used love now he won’t even shower weekly but feel obligated to stay for him

i just want end it all I used be afraid of dying not anymore 

I’ve wasted my life getting g cancer early which left me a lot disabilities and prevented me from working more then part time bringing up four children mainly on my own and now have zero it’s only going get worse I can’t do this anymore 

[Crane]

Hey Mate,

Just wanted to write something to say there are people out there that care for you. Your life is worth so much more than ending it, despite how incredibly hard it must feel. I'm writing thid message after driving home from work just to get up again the next morning - I'm fortunately lucky to live with my family and like the job I do but have become incredibly depressed because of the stress and unhappiness it's caused me for a couple of reasons (I even cried to myself tonight for the first time). I honestly can't say I know what it's like for you but I wanted to be here to say: keep on, keeping on. I know for a fact that both your kids and grand kids want you around for many years to come.

Also, recommend you to pick up a copy of The Barefoot Investor from your local library and give it a solid read. I definitely enjoyed reading it, and it contains some simple and easy steps to help get your life back on track. It may not be for everyone, but I wouldn't be recommending it otherwise.

All the best, and take care!

[CaneNero]

it can be really difficult grieving the life that you wish you had. It sounds like you missed out on a lot that you really wanted.

Life doesn't usually end up the way we wanted to unfortunately. We end up being shocked with how much pain and loss there is in life. I think when we are young we are sold a story that we can do anything and it's all going to work out how we planned. When we get older we realise that it was just a story. This can be really hard to deal with especially if you've experienced health issues and other things. 

I would like to let you know that even in a desperate situation, it's going to sound really cheesy but you can still find beauty in life. 

If you think about it, and maybe you can Google the chances, but the chance of you and I becoming alive is exceptionally low. I'm not religious at all. But honestly it is a miracle that we are even here, alive.

When I think about that I think about what I have to be grateful for. Everything comes into perspective. It's not just about what I could have accomplished in my life, it's about the fact that I'm alive at all, and here to experience what I can experience with my life, within my limitations.

So what can we experience even after we have lost what we wanted in life? 

The sun on our face as we sit outside. Sipping a hot cup of tea. The sound of birds. The breeze. Nature. Using our bodies even if we have pain. That we can see and we can hear. That we did at one stage experience some type of love. How lucky are we even if things are not great now, at times they were and we got to experience it.

I guess it sounds stupid but life is really simple. If we can't have what we wanted, there is always something there to appreciate and to love and to feel amazed about. Even if it's just the basics. Sometimes the simple things are the best things.