Distraught

[Guest_24021990]

about four weeks ago I suffer the seizure and ended up in a induced coma for 5 days when they wake me on the 5th day I suffered from ICU delirium and post trauma amnesia and remember nothing for 15 hours after that one minute I was sitting in the lounge at my partner said babe are you okay the next I come to in the middle of a park and remember nothing of this apparently when I woke up this aggravated and my partner and left the hospital and my partner left me having spoken to me since I remember none of this and it wasn't my fault I am absolutely devastated confused scared and lonely we were together for 12 years every day just mean him alone we have been through so much together while I was in my coma I heard him say babe you're awake you scared me thought I was going to lose you and was kissing my forehead I remember nothing else I am now alone no friends my family and no explanation I've lost everything he was my life and every day is getting harder I have been planning to end my life as the pain is unbearable I have no friends no one except myself he was the only other person in my life and now I have no future as he was my future and it's killing me that he has cut off all contact for something that I was not in control of or remember my heart has been shattered I was scared of dying alone without him by my side now that's going to be reality one minute he loves me then I blinked and I wake up in a path 6 days of my life missing and him gone 

[Croix]

Dear New Member~

I'd like to give you a warm welcome here at the Forum.

Having a seizure and losing 6 days from your memory is a pretty devastating thing. May I ask if the cause has been found?

I don't ask that out of idle curiosity, it may have a bearing on oyur partner's behaviour. Having been together for so long and being a huge part of each others lives - and for this to suddenly be cut off may indeed see like all in your life is over.

Without wishing to raise false hopes in a way the same thing happened to you partner, the person he had as half his life disappeared and he may well have felt extremely frightened and lost and powerless and simply ran away not being able to bear the  thought or look at you unconscious or confused..

If this is the case, and you do not really know but let's hope, then contacting him, and rather than pleading for his return write a reassurance you understand his disappearance, however you are back to being the person he loved for the last 12 years and you would love to continue your lives together. If they have told him something frightening in the hospital you can point out doctors are only human and not infallible.

So please try to put your fears on hold until you get an answer

We are here for you and we will always understand

Croix