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[imsohungry]

 im 14 and ive been dealing with a lot of suicidal thoughts. i didnt grow up with great parents and even the people who are taking care of my right now arent that helpful i get bullied at school for and sometimes i jsut wanna end it all i once attempted suicide my mother put me up on social media as a missing person and my whole school saw and i had like 8 meltdowns but no one cared and everyone made fun of me. it got so bad that i ended up in hospital 2x and even after that the bullying got worse and atp i dont even know what to do bc right now my whole life is messed up and im so tired and absolutely no one understands me and sometimes i self harm to relieve my stress but absolutely nothing helps at all the things is i escaped one thing which was trauma from my parents bc they abused me but now i have more problems to deal with idk how to cope with it .

[Sophie_M]

Hi imsohungry,

A very warm welcome to the Beyond Blue Forums. We're really sorry to hear how much you've been going through - it truly is a lot. It makes complete sense that things would feel overwhelming at times. Please know this is a safe and supportive space where you can share what’s happening for you, free from judgment.

We’re especially sorry to hear that you’ve been made fun of in the past. No one deserves to be treated that way, especially when they’re struggling. Reaching out here was a really brave and important step. 

It sounds like you’ve been feeling let down by a lot of people in your life, and that’s incredibly tough. Is there anyone you do feel safe with, even just a little? You shouldn’t have to carry all of this alone.

We’ve reached out to you privately, but also wanted to share a few options for support that might be helpful:

• School wellbeing team: If you're at school, chatting with a trusted teacher or wellbeing staff member can be a good way to make sure someone knows what’s going on for you.
• Talk to a counsellor:
  • Headspace: You can join group chats or speak with a professional online or by phone at 1800 650 890.
  • Beyond Blue: Our counsellors are available 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or via webchat.
• Create a safety plan: ReachOut has a helpful guide for making a safety plan. This can be useful when you're having thoughts of self-harm or suicide. You can find it here: ReachOut Safety Plan
• In an emergency: If you ever feel unsafe or need immediate help, please call 000.

When things feel overwhelming, is there anything that helps take the edge off, even just a little? Here are some distraction ideas that others have found helpful when dealing with self-harm urges:  Self-Help for self-harm

Reaching out for support can feel scary, but it’s such an important step toward healing. None of this is your fault, and you absolutely deserve support and care.

Thank you again for posting. We’re here for you, and we want you to know that you matter and you’re always welcome here.

Take good care of yourself today 💙

Kind regards
Sophie M

[smallwolf]

Hey there! Welcome to the forums here. I can feel how heavy this has been for you, and I want to stop for a moment on that. You’ve been dealing with pain from your parents, the bullying, being laughed at when you were already hurting, etc. That’s a lot for anyone, especially at 14. No wonder you feel worn down and exhausted.

Sophie_M said pretty much anything I could have said. I just want to add that you are worth it. And I'm listening ... (i you want to chat.