Struggling to find the value in sticking things out

_Gigi_

There is no point to my being here. I'm deeply unhappy and can barely remember I time I felt otherwise. My life has not been enjoyable, and due to my current situation, I cannot see that changing. Logically, I believe it will only get more difficult to manage.

In addition, very few people seem to want me around either. I'm not popular at work- I barely talk to my coworkers and a few even seem annoyed with me. My therapist thinks I'm autistic, which would help explain why I find it very difficult to fit in. I suppose I just rub people the wrong way.

Also, my family situation is problematic, worsening with time. Adding my personal issues to the mix would solve nothing and would simply exacerbate the problems. I have a few good friends but due to my mental health I've not been consistent with keeping in touch.

I'm safe right now. Just hoping to hear from some people who have felt the same. And maybe someone can give me some advice: how can things get better if the circumstances can't be changed?

Sophie_M

Hi _Gigi_,

Thank you for sharing so openly about what’s been going on. It sounds like you’ve been feeling deeply unhappy for quite some time and that you’re finding it hard to see how things could change, which just must be really exhausting to carry.

It’s really positive that you’re in contact with a therapist, and that you reached out here to connect with others who might understand. You don’t have to face these thoughts alone.

If things ever start to feel unsafe or overwhelming, you can contact the Beyond Blue Support Service (1300 22 4636) or Lifeline (13 11 14) at any time for immediate support.

You deserve understanding and care, and we’re really glad you’re here sharing with us.

Take gentle care,
Sophie M

_Gigi_

Thank you for the reply, Sophie_M. I appreciate you taking the time to answer.

Seeing a therapist has certainly been beneficial- I don't really have anyone I can confide in otherwise. Unfortunately, the holidays meant a canceled appointment, and so I haven't gotten a chance to chat with her in a while. It's lonely, and I feel like a fake when I pretend to be fine around everyone else. It's very tiring.