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Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm Section

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Hi there, Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm section of the Beyond Blue Forums. Life gets pretty hard sometimes, and many people here on the Forums have had times where they have thought about harming themselves or ending their life. This can be a deeply distressing experience, and this section is here to support members who have had these experiences. This section is not a crisis support service. If you are in crisis or need immediate help, assistance is not available via these Forums. Please call: Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 (24/7) Lifeline on 13 11 14 (24/7) If it is an emergency, contact emergency services on 000. This is a place to share where you are at, seek ideas for support and know that you are not alone. We are here to create a safe environment for everyone. Please do not provide any details about any plans/ideas that you may have had to hurt yourself, and importantly, help us to understand if you are safe by letting us know in the post. For some people this section might be difficult to read – if it is not helping how you feel, then please consider moving to another section. This section, like the rest of the Forums, is closely monitored and all posts are reviewed by moderators before publication. Moderators will also ensure that anyone needing follow up will be provided with information about how to access further support. If after a period of time you no longer wish others to engage in the discussion you have started, please use the 'Report Post' button and request the discussion be locked to prevent any further replies. Thank you for being here, we're glad you're here. Treat yourself gently as you read through this section. Beyond Blue

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Do you have a safety plan?

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Safety planning involves creating a structured plan – ideally with support from your health professional or someone you trust – that you work through when you’re experiencing suicidal thoughts, feelings, distress or crisis. Your safety plan starts with things you can do by yourself, such as thinking about your reasons to live and distracting yourself with enjoyable activities. It then moves on to coping strategies and people you can contact for support – your friends, family and health professionals. The safety planning model was developed in the US by suicide prevention experts Barbara Stanley and Gregory Brown. It has been used extensively by US veterans’ health organisations, hospital emergency departments and high schools, and there is strong evidence that it works. Many health professionals in Australia also use some form of safety planning to support clients experiencing suicidal thoughts or feelings, or after a suicide attempt. beyondblue has an app you can use to create a safety plan, called BeyondNow. The BeyondNow app takes the principles of safety planning and makes it even easier to use – so rather than carrying around a piece of paper, you’ve got it on your phone at all times. It’s free to download from the Apple Store or Google Play. If you don’t have a smartphone or would prefer to use your desktop or laptop, BeyondNow is also available to use on our website. Do you have a safety plan? Do you have questions around how you might create one, or fill out some of the sections? This thread is for discussing ideas around creating a safety plan, and sharing tips about what has been most useful about this process for you. Below are two videos featuring Peter and Nic, who have both used safety plans successfully. Peter Nic

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feeling doomed

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hi im a recent high school graduate and i got into uni recently but im really not doing welli just hate uni so so so so much i was already stressed before attending but since attending i've spent every day feeling extremely miserable. i've barely felt any happiness and i spend most of my time either breaking down into tears or trying to stop myself from crying so that i can focus on catching up on the hours of work that i already missed . but being depressed only makes it worse because i can't focus which makes me even more depressed because i spend hours sitting at my desk trying to get myself to work but i just don't and i watch as the work just keeps piling up and the clock turns by i know it probably sounds silly to want to end my life over school but i feel like my back is pressed against a wall and that ill be unhappy for the rest of my life. i feel so hopeless and doomed because i can only foresee misery and unemployment and student debt in my future and i feel like i wasnt built to be alive. i feel like my 12 year old self... or even my 14 year old self was vindicated when i counted on dying before i graduated because i knew i wouldn't make it in the "real world". i feel so jealous seeing my friends enjoy their uni course or working hard doing what they've set out to do. i hate my uni course so much but i don't know what to change to because there's nothing i'm really passionate about or think that i could do in or make a decent income in and i don't want to drop out because i feel like ill be even more unemployable . but i feel so deeply miserable if it's ok, i hope someone can give some advice please sorry if this was incoherent and thank you for reading

I will never feel enough

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it’s been a while, i have been getting better. i have had my worst days and my best days right next to each other only hours apart.. one second i am contemplating suicide and the other i feel like life is the most beautiful gift bestowed unto me. the truth is that at my core i want to be visible and seen, and seen especially for beauty, because i feel so invisible in anything else. the millimeters of my face and meticulous measurements are what drive me crazy.. but i am socialized as pretty. it’s a puzzling situation because if i were to tell you alone the things i have experienced or heard you would think, ‘yes she must be beautiful’. i have had people pause, gasp, get excited, compliment me right upon first glance. and if i tell you that, you would surely think i must be just wallowing in sorrow for no apparent reason. but truth is if i then attached an image of myself you would think, ‘no i understand now, why she feels so ugly; she truly is’. beauty may be subjective but my objective measurements are not attractive and before you say beauty is in the eye of the beholder it’s all subconscious and true. i see beauty in everyone but me and i feel as though anyone who finds beauty in me will soon see the real face i have and be repulsed. for example, a girl in a younger grade tapped me on the shoulder and told me plainly, ‘you’re pretty’. i of course said thank you and for a split second i really was flattered, until i started turning and hiding my face from her deliberately so she won’t inspect closer and realize i am actually ugly. and to make it worse my comparison is debilitating. why do i feel so inadequate? what do others see that i don’t, and on the flip side when i feel pretty where does the external validation go? it’s a game of cat and mouse at this point

I am in a hole

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Im at that point where things seem to be okay for like two weeks and then im back to feeling like shit and it gets kinda bad. I have basically no friends which makes school suck, and i go to a selective school and the people there make it look so effortless while im struggling all the time. I hate it at home too its like sometimes they really care and most of the times they really couldnt care. And they are like adamanat i get my grades up and even though i try really hard it just doesnt work out that well. I am stuck in analysis paralysis because I'm stressing all the time about school at home and stressing about not having anyone at school, its just like whats even the point of trying anymore? I just want to feel happy again. Thank you who ever is reading this for taking the time to listen to me talk about my life

Meeting new therapist while acutely suicidal

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Last week my therapist and I said Goodbye because she “referred me on” - aka gave up/threw me away.I adored her and I now regret not trying harder or making more progress or whatever it was I failed at…Anyway, I have NEVER felt more hurt or more broken. I have done “life” for many decades and I really, really SUCK at it. The only thing keeping me here is the impact that suicide has on people who have to deal with it - elderly parents, siblings dealing with elderly parents, and my kids.i have ZERO interest in existing for “me” and existing for others is actually painful. When I am not at work, the days crawl and I have to endure minute after minute. Alcohol “helps” but that becomes the problem. Anyway, I have an appt with a new therapist this week and I should be selling myself like a product so she’ll agree to work with me.If she rejects me, I know I CANNOT continue being alive. I actually feel physically SICK from the effort of passing time.So, do I cancel the appt or do I go there and pretend I’m keen to change and “looking forward to working with her”? If I lie, there’s a vague chance she’ll agree to see me but it would be under false pretenses. If I tell her I just want to end it and lay out the reasons, she’ll run a mile (RISK is expensive and NOT the friend of private practitioners) and my kids will have the inconvenience of organising a burial and sorting out legal stuff…I can’t reschedule. I barely got through this weekend.What do I do? The 48 hour cancellation fee policy looms…Please help.

CATT team

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Has anyone had any experience with CATT (Crisis Assessment and Treatment Teams)? I live in Tasmania and I’ve been in contact with them for a while after my psychologist contacted them. I’ve never spoken to people who are so blunt and horrible before. I’ve never experienced anything like it. The call ends and I feel worse than when they rang me. Is this something that happens a lot? I just don’t understand. To be at a point where you need the CATT team is a big thing so people need someone who is caring and compassionate - or at the very least doesn’t make you feel bad because you’re trying your best to describe and articulate something. Talking about particular things relating to mental health is challenging for most people so I don’t understand how someone can rush you and think that it’s no big deal. She was getting annoyed at me because I was taking ‘too long’ to describe my mood and how I was feeling. I just don’t understand how this particular person got the position to talk to people who are struggling. It’s really concerning to me.

I don't know where my thoughts come from or how to escape them

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Hi. I've never posted on a Beyond Blue forum before, nor have I really reached out for professional psychological help either. I've seen my GP once to get a mental health plan, but I've never actually used it. I don't know why exactly, maybe a combination of helplessness and laziness. I'd also like to say I'd normally consider myself a really upbeat and joyful person, and that is why I don't know how to traverse these feelings. I'm 21 and studying Criminology and Data Analytics at university. I'm enjoying it, but I have had to stop and start my degree so many times now that I feel absolutely useless. I get insane imposter syndrome, constantly thinking that when, if I even do graduate, I'm gonna be completely unemployable because there are so many better people than me. I have a government job interview coming up and can't stop thinking that I'm not going to get the role because I'm in over my head. The last year and a bit has been rough for me. I've had a medical episode (not related to my mental health), and barely made any money after having to leave a job that I really enjoyed because they shut down at the start of 2025. I've been stuck in a loop of working in hospitality bar and pub jobs. It's absolutely draining. I hate the hours, I hate the work, the people I'm working with are nice enough but there is just a vibe around hospitality venues that I can't shake off. It makes me feel unbelievably miserable. God I fucking hate it so much. I'd take a retail job back in a heartbeat but I can't seem to catch a break in the rejection emails I get when I apply to a retail role. At night time I get pretty regular suicidal thoughts. Not violent thoughts, I don't want to harm myself at all, but the feeling of absolute freedom that suicide provides me is dangerously comforting. I've never attempted or even humoured the thought of attempting, though. I love my family, and the last thing I'd want is for my mom, dad or brother to find out what happened to me. Hell, even my dog. But I've had these thoughts for a while now. I thought they would pass but they seem to have lingered and gotten more consistent. I think primarily my biggest issue right now is how much I hate my job, but I know these thoughts extend to something deeper that I can't identify. I really struggle with the idea of going to a psychologist though. I don't know why. I don't know why I posted this. Thanks if you read it.

Don’t understand my feelings

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Lately everything has been very hard to deal with.. I have these moments when my brain is just like, I can’t believe this and I don’t want to be in this kind of world anymore. That living is just so hard and scary and that my anxiety can’t take it anymore. I used to be so resilient but now I’m more affected somehow. I don’t want to do anything fun, scared to drink an alcohol beverage for no reason.. just silly things. Like going out with my husband to the city soon for our anniversary I’m so anxious about it and I don’t understand. I hate feeling this way because it’s scary. I just have no energy anymore

I don’t know what to do anymore.

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Hey there, I’m just gonna call myself J, I’m 16. I’m currently living out of home by myself, without a job, and no study. I feel so meaningless in life. I was living with my mum, but couldn’t handle the guilt tripping and arguments everyday and my dad is a million times worse. I’ve struggled with Self Harm for a few years now but it’s got significantly worse as of late. I don’t know what to do, I struggle immensely with my self image and have continuously struggled with eating and forcing myself to throw up whilst eating very little. I’ve tried to reach out, and sobbed to my parents about my struggles but my Dad screamed in myself that I make myself a victim and that I’m weak. I don’t know who to talk to or how to talk to anyone about this situation. I have literally no one in my life and feel to ashamed when I want to self harm to call and talk to anyone about it.

Can't do this anymore

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I don't feel safe at Mother's house. I tried telling my dad, but I texted him on my friend's phone and he thought it was my friend. I can't go to the police because they might not believe me. I don't think my Dad loves me anymore and my Mother is hurting me verbally and psychologically. I've had episodes where I can't control my body and it just wanders around and I feel that one day it's going to commit suicide for me and most of the time I can't remember what happened in these episodes. I see things and I hear things that aren't there and that no one else sees or hears and they tell me that my Mother is going to kill me. I can't sleep at night because the thoughts of suicide and the voices are too loud. I can't tell my friends but I need to tell my friends. The tape I so desperately put on the shards of my life is losing it's grip and I don't have any more tape. All I can do is watch as the pieces fall and shatter into tinier pieces waiting for someone to try and fix it and cut themselves. What do I do? I can't keep going through this loop. Again, and again, and again, it's all the same. What's the point of waking up to a new day when it's just the same as yesterday? My world is colourless but no matter how much paint I splash onto it, it stays the same. Same. Same. Same. I get so close to calling Lifeline, but then I back away because what if they call the police? What if the police put me in a foster home? What if the police don't believe me and place me with my Mother? I don't think anyone can help me now. I'm stuck in a hole at the bottom of the sea and no matter what I do I can't swim out. I'm scared but I'm scared of myself. The voices tell me the police won't believe me. The voices tell me no one will believe me. The voices tell me I'm stupid for thinking someone would. My happy hallucinations I once had can't comfort me anymore. What do I do? My friends can't help me. My dad can't help me. My family can't help me. Not even I can help myself. Because I lose consciousness and forget everything that happened. I'm surprised I'm even posting this because I'm worried Beyond Blue will send the police and everyone will hate me and the voices will laugh at me and call me a coward for not saying anything when it first happened. This is all getting too much. I just need peace and quiet and my dad to love me again and for everything to go back to the way it was when the voices were nicer and quieter and when my hallucinations still worked.

Instant rage and anger

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Hey all, I suffered a workplace assualt and psychological injury 6 years ago. As a result I have been diagnosed with Adjustment disorder and PTSD. I have fortnightly therapy and a psychiatrist. I have worked with cognitive behaviour therapy and talk therapy.I have struggled to find medication that works for me personally and I feel rather alone and at dispare.Late last year I had a attack where I got verbally aggressive and lost control since I have had several other but smaller. Recently I had another where I was extremely ashamed of my behaviour, I was uncontrollable It scared me terribly and my teenage daughter, who unfortunately seemed to be my trigger lately. I feel terrible and ashamed to admit that. Her lack of remorse, eye rolling and laughing when I'm angry makes my blood boil. I've now realised that this feeling is anger and rage at a really disproportionate level.I'm scared of my self, I'm scared I'm destroying my family, I feel extremely alone tired and sore and worst of all ashame. My behaviour needs to stop and I really need to take back control to be the mum and wife I want to be. Can anyone tell me anything they have done to control this instant aggressive uncontrollable rage episode before they begin. Thanks in advance

Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm Section replies: 0

Do you have a safety plan? replies: 97

feeling doomed replies: 3

I will never feel enough replies: 2

I am in a hole replies: 2

Meeting new therapist while acutely suicidal replies: 4

CATT team replies: 5

I don't know where my thoughts come from or how to escape them replies: 2

Don’t understand my feelings replies: 1

I don’t know what to do anymore. replies: 1

Can't do this anymore replies: 5

Instant rage and anger replies: 2