Relapse

[Kailani]

Hi, I am new to the online forum and just want to stress that I am currently safe. I recently relapsed for the first time in a while. I have had other individual relapse occasions but this is the worst relapse in a while. I won't mention how as that is not appropriate but what scared me was it felt good (I am in no way promoting self harm as I know deep down it is not healthy and only offers temporary relief). I found I was calm afterwards and it temporarily relieved my inner turmoil. I currently have no support network. I don't see a psychologist and my family are unaware of my behaviour. I guess what I wanted to ask was how do you guys deal with the shame and guilt of relapsing? How did you eventually get some help? I am not yet ready to reach out and ask for help but I hope I am in the near future. Finally I want to end this by saying I hope everyone is safe and well, remember you are not alone in this fight!

[Sophie_M]

Hello Kailani,

It's good to hear that you have found the communtiy to be wonderful and welcoming. We are sorry to hear that you have found keeping yourself safe today to be a struggle. It is good that you mentioned that you are safe for tonight, if this changes at any point, we encourage you to call emergency services on 000 (Triple zero). We also encourage you to contact online and telephone support and any offline supports (like a therapist/counselor) if you feel like you are needing to talk about these thoughts/feelings with someone. if you feel up to it, we would also encourage you to have a look at the Suicide Safety Planning section of the Beyond Blue website where you can develop a safety plan to help keep you safe tonight.