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[Di76]

Im not sure im even posting this on the right forum. Please tell me if its not. Hi.... so... upfront.....I have not read through many posts. Im sorry. I just thought I needed an outlet. Dont even know where to begin. Im 44 years old. I have a great (although very stressful) job. 2 grown kids i love. 1 granddaughter I adore. Dating an amazing man for just over 7 yrs. Lost my sister 2 yrs ago from pancreatic cancer. That's when my life fell apart. The hurt is unbearable. Just the last few months.....I took a knife. I had no intention to end my life. I just maybe wanted physical pain to take away the emotional pain.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Di76, a warm welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. We're glad to see you join us here today. We really hope that discussing your experiences here can be a helpful process for you. Please know our community is here to lend an ear and provide support and advice when you need it. 

We're so sorry to hear about the loss of your sister. We cannot begin to imagine how painful this must be for you as we know how important the connection and memories between sisters are. We think it could be really beneficial for you to contact Griefline (1300 845 745). They are a Support Service dedicated to providing counselling services free of charge to individuals who are experiencing loss and grief. One of the friendly counsellors can offer you some support but also provide you with advice and referrals for seeing a counsellor in a more ongoing way. 

If you feel you would benefit from more ongoing support, we’d also encourage you to get in in touch with us via our Support Service on 1300 22 4636 or www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport and we can provide you with some advice on how to do this, and talk through some options to help you through your loss.

You might also be interested in our page on “Grief and Loss” - https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/grief-and-loss

We're really grateful that you decided to reach out here tonight. Hopefully, a few of our community members will come by to welcome you to our friendly online community. 

[Truc]

Hi,

I have faced some people who have died so I think I can share with you something, life may be never easy when it comes to someone who we love the most died, but at the end, things happen, usually when I think of people who I love had died, to recall if they want to see me like this, will they be happy, and is there anything they wanted to fulfill but they can not? If so, I will try my best to get up on the ground to help them or fulfill the promise between me and them, also to be responsible what they aren't finished yet maybe, I know it is not my responsibilty, but in my opinion, if we love them then we give them a little bit of help should not be not a big deal, time is one of the best healing processes we can use and keep ourselves busy with other things, the pain is not always bad, the pain taught us to live and to value the people who love more in my opinion, to make us not neglect others. people think everyone would be mature around 30 or 35 but just my view, people should be more mature than yesterday even we are 100 years old already, we may never be completely mature because there are so many things we have not experienced. I hope it is helpful