Lost, my life so far is aimless

[Guest_33484229]

I've been struggling with depression ever since highschool and I've only recently been seeing my psychologist for help. The idea  of life and living has always sounded stressful to me, so i never really knew what i wanted to be or do with my life other than kill myself at a young age. I confessed to my parents one day about how im not sure where my life is heading and not exactly sure what to do, I've only just recently turned 18 and was expecting guidance or reassurance, instead i get told off about how they would send me back to my country if i did nothing or didn't know what to do with my life, since then the thought of killing myself and harming myself only really increased. The next time i see my psychologist is next week and im willing to ask for help, other than that im not really sure what to do, as of right now.

[Sophie_M]

Hey,
Thank you for your bravery and openness in sharing here. We understand how tough it can be to feel this way and we are so appreciative of your honesty, seems like things have been so hard for quite a long time for you.

Is there anyone that you feel able to discuss this in person with? We’re reaching out to you privately to check you’re ok. In the meantime, we’d encourage you to give the Beyond Blue counsellors a call on 1300 22 4636 or speak to them on webchat here.

If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important that you take immediate steps to keep safe. That might mean connecting with existing supports, following a safety plan, or you could connect with Lifeline on 13 11 14. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency, and you need to call 000 (triple zero). 

We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you, and we’re sure they’ll spot your post soon enough and have some kind words and understanding for you. 
Kind regards,
Sophie M

[Ash_music]

Hi I'm ash. I know exactly what your going through right now and I know it's hard. I am struggling with depression and anxiety. I have thoughts of suicide and self harm everyday.. But it isn't worth it. It only makes things worse. And there are so many people that care for you and who would end up facing the same thing you are right now if you died. You are amazing. There IS light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can't see it yet. You are strong. You are fire. You are the light. And I know life is hard, and unfair, and crappy, but there are also times when it is fun, and loving, and exciting. Cherish those moments, cherish your loved ones and you will be amazing with life. I will be happy to talk if you need to. I will listen whenever you need it. I will give you as much advice as you need. I can be part of your support if you need. There ARE people who look out for others🖤

[Ash_music]

It sounds like your having a hard time. I'm ash and I'm 14. I understand what your going through is hard because I'm going through something very similar. But I can tell you that you are doing GREAT. You are AMAZING. And even if it feels like there's not there is light at the end of the tunnel. Even if the tunnel is VERY LONG and very hard to get through. But you are STRONG. You WILL make it even through the doubt. You have so much support. And if you need you can talk to me as much as you need. I'm not a therapist but I can understand this. You are doing amazing.