Last week I had a very scary experience with my son who started screaming at myself and my daughter. He thought we were arguing and was triggered. He had a driving lesson this week that didn't go well and again had a screaming fit.
Poor kid was an innocent bystander to watching his big sister go through severe bullying through senior school. His own needs as a child growing up were second to myself and his mum having to devote most of our attention to his sister to survive. It was awful and I knowing what I know now would have pulled her out of the education system that is clearly broken.
Their lack of support and action supports perpetrators and not victims. No accountability for parents and consequences for the kids.
Anyhow, they have damaged both of my kids as a result. Time doesn't heal wounds. My own innocent kids had to deal with changing schools 3 times, restraining orders on 12, 13 year old girls for what? Because their own negligent parents didn't have the decency to rain in their own kids behaviour when they were being awful to a young girl for no reason. Very sad!
As a father who is struggling to navigate his own life it is not easy. My son is lost. I can see it in his eyes. He has so much rage and anger I am genuinely concerned about what may happen. He is a ticking time bomb. Selfishly as an adult I now regret having children knowing I don't have the mental fortitude to help them navigate all the unnecessary BS that life these days is delivering.
I am exhausted from constantly feeling grief and sadness in all areas of life. Thanks for listening. x
