Living in car

[James010405]

Howdy everyone. My partner and I of 7 years broke up at the start of the year and I've got no place to go. My 3 kids don't know that I'm officially classed as homeless and living out of my car for the last 9 months. Both my parents and sister have passed away a while ago now and I don't have any family to turn to for help. 2 mates know all the details and how I'm living and trying to help. I'm still working 2 jobs and can't get a rental to call home either. I had 2 Social workers give up on me trying to find a home, my ex was trying for 3 weeks but gave up and now a mate has offered to help with a bond if I find a place. Finding a place seems like a waste of time because I don't have anything to put in a home. My dog is living with the ex and she won't let me see my 15yo dog either now or even send me a picture of how she is going as well.. this Xmas coming will be the 8th shittiest in a row now and I just can't do it again. I just can't seem to get a break in life or get the hell I need to have a happy life again or share it with someone that loves me. Everything seems pointless or useless to me and all I can think of is just going, disappear or leave without a trace to never come back. I know it will break my 2 sons 18,17 and my 20yo daughter would not care. She refuses to see me, talk to me or even reply in texts and now she won't let me see my 9 month old grandchild that I've seen 1 time for 10 min. I have no where to go, no one to turn to and everyone gives up on me now and I can not see the light at the end of the tunnel and only seems like my hole is getting deeper by the day now. I cry myself to sleep most nights while sleeping in a sleeping bag in my car and pray to the lord to take me in my sleep but it never happens. I'm sick of this missarible life and so exhausted to the point where I can't think of see properly now. I need help and kindness

[James010405]

G'day everyone sorry it's been a while now. Just a small update on me and my life. 

I'm still homeless but I'm doing ok and come to terms with it and custom to the beat up car now plus I enjoy my own company and time except for Sunday when I have no work, no place to go or just alone with my own thoughts.. my manager at my 2nd job rang me to ask if I can do Sunday and I said yes thinking he wanted me to swap sat to Sunday but no it's both days and I said yes. Looking back at it now what was I thinking. Anyway I'm 1/2 way through a 13 day work week. So anyway the ex gf texted me 2 days ago now and her bf as well about my stuff at the house. Well I assume it is but I've not opened or read and even reply back to her or him.  I didn't go to court for the meeting so I got a Ivo on me again and not allowed at the house for 1 year. Paperwork says Zero contact between us and we can oy comuicate via mediation, courts or lawyer and in 10 days after court the ex gf sends me texts. So do I breach her on it or what?? If I message back I have the real chance it's jail, police and courts again for me but if I don't contact back I'll loose absolutely all I have or had in lifetime belongings. I don't know if I should go to the police and ask tomorrow or what. Do I file a stolen property report or property dispute to the courts? How or what canoe should I do now?

[James010405]

Well I've still not got to the police station to ask for advice on this matter.. I dont know if I can get anywhere soon tbh because the clutch on my car is dying fast and hard to get into gears and revise almost impossible now..can't start off in 1st and have to use 2nd to get rolling then clutch it in and jam into 1st gear. Any way that's now another issue and problem I have to face alone by myself again. Does the mountain of crap to deal with or be faced against ever end or at least slow down so I can catch a breath or break.  It's almost Xmas in 20 days and it going to be absolutely shit for the 9th in a row now. I really do hate Xmas and this time of year now.