Im sick and tired, talking dosent help.

stunnagirl · ‎29-04-2026

i really dont know where to start, but i feel so lonley, im away from my deen, im getting left out i feel like im not living just surviving. why is my life this way? i wanna end it so bad im failing everything: school, relationships, even my self esteem. im not quite sure why i feel this way. is the rumours being made of me ? is it the fact that whatever i do it never ends right. im such a failure my life is a mess i just wanna be included, appreciated, loved , cared for, but i never end up feeling this way, just giving others, even if they dont deserve it. everyone sort of has there person and im just there , even in my family i feel like the black sheep, always getting made fun of , always hurt, always blamed. i just want to feel something, anything. i recently realised i was bisexual and its so shameful to me, my religon , my family, it makes me feel like an outcast. also the fact i got sexually assaulted and theres nothing i can do about it. im such a bad person, im a bad muslim, im just bad theres nothing good in my life. i only find peace before i sleep. i pretend im about to die and all my feelings fade away but as soon as i wake up it feels like a punishment. like a new day of hell, feeling lonley. and no one bothered to check up on me. no one bothers to do anything. not even to simply ask if im okay, even if i do tell someone my feelings eventually they shut me out and ignore me, like im a burden to everything. im so tired. i really am. idk what to do anymore and i dont wanna live i feel as if i cant find certian happiness in my life, i just want to feel as if i found purpose in life. but im js taken as a joke. anyways thats all i have to say and i genuienly dont want to feel this way anymore

Sophie_M · ‎29-04-2026

Hi stunnagirl,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. It was so brave of you to reach out here. We can understand how difficult it must be to feel this way. Thank you for letting us know about what's been going on for you.

We would like to talk through these feelings with you, so a member of our team will be getting in touch with you privately.

If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about self-harm, this is an emergency, and you need to call 000 (triple zero).

In the meantime, we’d really encourage you to give us a call on the Beyond Blue Support Service on 1300 22 4636 to talk things through with the lovely counsellors there. A few more options are KidsHelpline on 1800 55 1800, Lifeline on 13 11 44, and Headspace on 1800 650 890. All of these options are also available through webchat, if you'd prefer:

It can be really tough to make the step to make a call but the people who answer the phone are kind and helpful. They speak to people about this every day and can offer useful advice. You don't have to go through this alone.

We’re sure some more of our lovely community members will be along soon with some advice and kindness for you as you work through this. It’s so important to be kind to yourself while you work through it.

Kind regards,
Sophie M

Guest_82447311 · ‎06-05-2026

Hi OP,

I would just like to say, I feel the same way. Talking about it is really hard and sometimes I find telling people I don't know can help with it, I hope you're okay, and if you need help, there's always going to be a website or person to help. No pressure. You're amazing

-Sky

Guest_82447311 · ‎06-05-2026

I forgot to add that you are amazing, and don't let anything, including religion take away who you are. As another bisexual, I can say, people will disapprove, and some will say "no your dating (opposite gender) so you're straight" but you are amazing, and you should not take your life.

A quote I repeat to myself daily

"Your life is not a movie, so don't end it"

Also think about how it would affect everyone who loves you when you're gone. When I'm feeling suicidal I think about what I would miss, and how sad everyone would be if I was dead.

Thank you

-sky