i just dont know what to do.

[idontknowwhattodoanymore]

its just been really hard lately and i need some advice. everyone is always leaving and picking other people over me. i just want one person to care, i need someone to care. but nobody does and i dont know what to do. these thoughts keep running through my mind and its scary, i dont want to live anymore. but im still scared to die.

i feel like my parents just dont care, they have so much to deal with my everything else going on in their lives, and i dont want to burden them, so i havent said anything. the only friends i have left arent real friends, they dont care about me. they just use and betray me, and it hurts. so i just dont know what to do. ive been self-harming for a while because its the only way to take away pain from what im feeling. people always dismiss my feelings and no ones ever really cared, but idk, i feel like this is real. and its becoming too much. ive written letters to everyone i love and even the people who have made me feel this way. people say suicide is a permenant solution to a temporary problem, but this isnt going away and its been here for a while now.

im just looking for someone to care, to give me advice because i just dont know what to do.

[Sophie_M]

Hey idontknowwhattodoanymore,

Welcome to our community and thank you for reaching out tonight. We can hear life is really difficult at the moment and that you don't have many people you feel you can trust around you. We're sorry to hear you feel as though you'll burden your parents, we're sure they would want to know that you've been feeling distressed. How have they acted in the past when you've mentioned your mental health? We want you to know that you are valuable and we're here to provide you with as much support, advice and conversation as you need.

Our Support Service is trying to reach out to you via email as we are worried about you.

We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

Please check-in and let us know how you are whenever you feel up to it.



 

[smallwolf]

Hello there and welcome to the beyond blue forums.

The easy bit is that people here do care about you, even if we cannot see each other. We all have our own stories and because of that can have an understanding of what others in similar situations are going through and can listen and help each other. With that in mind I am sorry to hear that you family and friends don't sound supportive.

Secondly, it is a courageous thing to do to here and talk about what you are going through!

At this time I only have 2 questions...

1. Have you spoken with your GP about this? You might be able to get a referral to a psychologist or similar.

2. What sort of advice are you looking for?

As I said above, the people here care and are listening to you

[Petal22]

Hi idontknowwhattodoanymore,

Wellcome to our forums!

Sorry you are feeling this way……

Please know we are all lovely kind caring people on this forum and we care about you..

Im sorry people are leaving and picking other people over you…. Would you like to talk about it?

I understand when we have thoughts running through our mind that are distressing to us they are very scary! I suffered with severe anxiety OCD this condition was horrible….. what accompanied my anxiety was very distressing intrusive thoughts…… they scared the hell out of me……. When we go through anxiety our minds take us to places that we never thought it would take us and it’s very scary……

Please try to talk to your parents I’m sure they would want to know if your feeling distressed and want to help you…

I have now recovered from OCD thanks to help of health professionals…… I highly recommend you see your gp and let them know how you are feeling……… they are there to help you…. You could do a mental health plan together this will enable you to see a psychologist…

Your life feels like this now but it won’t feel like this forever….. with the correct help you can recover from what you are going through….. I’m living proof of that ….. The best is yet to come for you ❤️ Hang in there…

Im here to chat to you anytime…. About anything….. I care about you….. things WILL get better….. 😊