I don't want to live anymore

[NellieF]

I have given up. There's no reason to live. There's no joy. There's nothing

[NellieF]

I have an auto immune disorder. It's hard for me to rest in bed. I'm physically sick and I get tired easily and depressed because of my illness.

[TheBigBlue]

I don’t know if this will help or not, but I live with 2 autoimmune disorders so I can understand how hard & tiring & relentless it can be. It just never stops & it’s physically & emotionally debilitating.

im always happy to listen if you need to vent

[white knight]

Hi NellieF

I'm here like the other posters. I'm listening, I'm feeling and just like the others, I'm feeling your message.

My survival 24 years ago started with a special man called Maharaji real name Prem Rawat. Maybe you'd like to Google these-

YouTube maharaji sunset

YouTube Maharaji the perfect instrument

TonyWK

[smallwolf]

Sad to read how challenging things are for you. There is also strength in you - from one post about sleeping all day and then to shopping...

Can you tell me something about your family?

[NellieF]

Hi smallwolf
I have my nephew staying with me. I am trying to relax and enjoy being in bed and listening to the rain makes me happy. My family pretty much do thier own thing and I see them with NDIS support. It's raining here and I love the rain. I get tired but I'm trying to enjoy staying in bed all day.

[NellieF]

Hi Bigblue I get very tired thanks for your post. I try to enjoy staying in bed and to rest.

[smallwolf]

How long is your nephew staying with you?

And what is it about the rain that you like?

[NellieF]

My nephew is staying with me for good. I love the rain it's peaceful and I can rest in bed and chat on multimedia.

[NellieF]

It's hard accepting that I have to stay in bed and rest that I can't go out anymore and study and work. I have always worked studied and been busy but to rest in bed for a year has been hard. But I'm trying to enjoy resting in bed all day and chatting on Multimedia. It's a different life.

[NellieF]

It's hard I try and do prayer and meditation it helps me change my reality. I find I am still depressed. I think it's got to do with immune disorder being depressed