I don’t know what to do anymore.

[Josssssie]

Hey there, I’m just gonna call myself J, I’m 16. I’m currently living out of home by myself, without a job, and no study. I feel so meaningless in life. I was living with my mum, but couldn’t handle the guilt tripping and arguments everyday and my dad is a million times worse. I’ve struggled with Self Harm for a few years now but it’s got significantly worse as of late. I don’t know what to do, I struggle immensely with my self image and have continuously struggled with eating and forcing myself to throw up whilst eating very little. I’ve tried to reach out, and sobbed to my parents about my struggles but my Dad screamed in myself that I make myself a victim and that I’m weak. I don’t know who to talk to or how to talk to anyone about this situation. I have literally no one in my life and feel to ashamed when I want to self harm to call and talk to anyone about it. 

[Sophie_M]

Hey Josssssie,

 Welcome to the Forums. Thank you so much for sharing here. We can hear how tough things have been lately and it is completely understandable that things are feeling overwhelming right now. Thank you, too, for bravely sharing something that you don't feel comfortable telling anyone else. A lot of us can go a long time not reaching out because we're ashamed or afraid of what people will think, so reaching out here is incredibly courageous thing to do.

 We've checked in with you privately, but we also wanted to reach out here too with some extra supports. It's important you have someone you feel safe talking to.  We’d really encourage you to give us a call on the Beyond Blue Support Service on 1300 22 4636 to talk things through and help consider some next steps. A few more options are KidsHelpline on 1800 55 1800, Lifeline on 13 11 44, and Headspace on 1800 650 890. All of these options are also available through webchat, if you'd prefer:  

• Beyond Blue  
• Kids Helpline  
• Lifeline  
• Headspace (9am-1am AEST)  
  
  

Another good option for support specifically around disordered eating concerns is The Butterfly Foundation on 1800 33 4673 or at https://butterfly.org.au/ 

Please feel free to share here openly and without fear of judgement as this is a safe space. We're really glad you have joined the Forums and we hope that you feel welcomed into the community.   

Kind regards

Sophie M