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Does anyone else wish they were dead but it isn't an option ?
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The warmest of welcomes to you at what sounds like such an unbearable time, in so many different ways. While some people make living life look easy, for others it's more so a matter of 'How do I live under these conditions?'.
There can be so many different conditions that can make it feel impossible to live life easily, without degrees of sufferance
- How we were raised, with either a lot of life skills and support or little to no skills and support, can determine how easy or hard life can be. Life can demand an enormous amount of skills or tools to manage
- How our brain ticks or what it struggles with (whether it struggles with some degree of ADHD or autism, for example) can be another factor
- Not having enough of the supports and guides we really need in life, in order to manage the stressful, depressing and unbearable challenges we face, can be another factor. Feeling lost and alone in the dark can be a truly brutal experience
- Mentally, the false belief systems we have about ourself and life, the inner dialogue we struggle with and the depressing perception that just refuses to shift can make life feel like a hell on earth experience at times
- Being an intensely feeling person can also come with so many challenges, a massive amount at times. Finding other sensitive people, with the ability to sense so much, can make a great difference at times. For a start, this can mean we have others sensing our challenges with us
and the list goes on. 'I can't leave but at the same time I don't know how to manage staying' in itself can create a sense of torture. Limbo or 'in-between' can be one of the toughest places to be in life. There are times in my life where I've been left of wonder 'Am I experiencing a kind of hell on earth or am I in limbo?', as the 2 can feel so similar at times. As a 54yo gal, I've finally reached the conclusion that no matter where I am there's no choice but to graduate through the challenges. How to manage doing that becomes the ultimate challenge. I've found the first key question to unlocking the way ahead is 'Can I do this by myself or do I need guides to show me the way or help light the way ahead?'. I have a variety of guides in my life, including some of those on the forums here.
Whether the guides relate to what impacts us physically (chemistry included), what impacts us mentally or what can feel soulful or soul destroying, I've found only the best of guides makes a difference. Anything less than that leads me to feel little to no difference. No difference just leaves us where we are, in an unbearable state of being, lost and alone in the dark with no sense of the way forward. ❤️
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Hello and welcome.
It's funny. And not in a "ha ha" way... you obviously love your children and pets (I hope that was what you were referring to) very much and yet something had happened to you that makes you question your value. And that is a sort of rhetorical question as well. I don't really have any answers except that I can listen to you tell your story - that is, whatever you want to share about it.
A few thins have happened in my life that has made me question my self-worth. Today with the help of a psych (both types) I'm still here. Some people who I work with when they ask "how are you", my reply will be "still here" or "alive" and to which they are happy about that. In the day that follows there are small things that I (or we) can be proud of. And maybe hold onto for dear life. This pattern repeats daily.
With saying that, I am very curious to find out about your story. That is ... if you want to share?
Listening... And hope you will come back.
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Definitely !!!!
lol, I blame my children for that. Bless them but, after awhile things just get worse with them. They don't communicate with me anymore. One child of mine has recently given birth to my 2nd grandchild. I know she isn't coping. I've tried reaching out to her so many times on every social platform but, she NEVER replies b😢
This is making my depression worse
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Hi 2310-lee.
I'm really sorry you're going through this. It would be frustrating and painful to be shut out and especially when you just want to help. A friend of my parents go through the same thing and I cannot think what that would be like. Can I ask what sort of the support you have?
