Can't go on any more

[Micheleb]

I'm 66, diagnosed with adhd 6 years,  I was going quite well until 3 years ago. The pandemic and thyroid disease spun me into ptsd. I'm over the struggle,  my family hate me and my dear long term friends have their own problems and lives. I can't kill myself because I would end up in hell but my life HERE is hell. Can ANYONE relate ?

Thank you 

[smallwolf]

Hello and welcome,

It takes a lot of strength to keep going despite feeling like you're in a tough spot. Also for you to share your story here.

I'm so sorry to hear about the struggles you've been going through. It sounds like you've been dealing with a lot in the last few years. It's understandable that these experiences have caused you to feel like you're in a difficult place.

It can be really lonely and isolating to feel like the people closest to us don't understand what we're going through or can't support us in the way we need. It can be difficult to see a way out when everything feels overwhelming. You deserve to have a life that is filled with happiness and fulfillment.

I hope you can find a way to get there.

Listening to you.

[therising]

Hi Micheleb

I imagine the ADHD diagnosis offered you some relief, helping you in understanding why things had been so challenging for so long. I've always found greater self understanding to be something that offers me incredible relief and a great education in a number of ways.

I'm actually reading a fascinating book at the moment called 'Healing ADD', by Dr Daniel Amen. The 'healing' part is more so about effectively managing ADHD in a variety of ways. It's a book that covers the types of ADHD and the challenges of those with ADHD of all ages (young and older). It also covers the challenges faced by those who live and work with people who experience ADHD. I started reading it while my 17yo son was being assessed for ADHD and/or ASD (autism spectrum disorder). He's now been officially diagnosed as being level 1 on the spectrum. Btw, it was him who pushed for the assessment, as he wanted to know why he struggles so much with certain things. He wants to learn how to manage what he struggles with, based on his nature and the way his brain ticks.

I think one of the problems with a number of systems (medical, psychological etc) involves a lack of certain helpful information. Whether it involves ADHD, depression, anxiety, the autism spectrum, physical ailments/conditions etc, I'd like to imagine a time in the future where some form of manual or brilliant book is suggested to those who suffer through what they face...'Here's a lay person's manual/excellent detailed book that will help explain to you and your family all the challenges involved in what you face'. Until then, I think we tend to face what resembles a patchwork quilt of a variety of internet resources in regard to a particular condition.

I believe there's a lot of sufferance experienced by those who face certain conditions based on a lack of education directed toward the people around them. As a 52yo gal who's faced the ins and outs of depression since my late teens, I can say there have been people who've made things worse (through a lack of education) and those who've made life so much easier and joyful, through their understanding, compassion, open mindedness, ability to relate etc.