Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[CMF]

I'm so flat. Just don't care about anything.

[Guest_1643]

so tired of waiting and callng and the delays between appointments and reaching the person u need to speak to....

my family member is really stressing me out and putting their stress on me

not good communication

makes me feel guilty

[tranzcrybe]

Oops, I've replied!

Here's a thing...

How about simply removing the reply buttons as done on other Mod-generated threads?

Another point...

'Vent and let it go' is a bit of a misnomer since the posts sit there indefinitely creating the antithesis of 'letting it go'. How about keeping them for only a week or month... or, and this will get the boffins scratching their heads, make them gradually fade away by getting progressively feinter over time.

Something to consider?

[Guest_1643]

hate my bedroom and my home right now, so hard to feel calm here. so much clutter and brown. So depressing.

Feel like sleep here is difficult and tense, and wander if i'll ever be able to relax and rest calmly at night. can only sleep a few hours and otherwise my anxiety soars. There's only so much mindfulness i can do to relax myself.

either i fall asleep like a log with horrid dreams or i don't sleep at all. neither are good.

[Guest_1055]

Anxious cannot do this, don't know how to be. Just be.

Want to be free of the fear of rejection, fear of being not acceptable, fear of not measuring up, fear of not knowing what to say, fear of being me, fear of the shame of what I look like, fear of what others think of my place and how neat it is not. Doesn't meet up to there place,therr standards, fear that they will feel uncomfortable here, fear of not measuring up, fear of they will talk about me behind my back and share how unclean this place is. Fear of what those people will then think of me

I feel troubled about all of this.

Let this go. I let this all go

[Guest_1643]

it's so odd to me that we hold doctors on such high pedestals.

thinking about it, doctors are often so not expert in emotion or sensitivity. they often would benefit from some sensitivity training. they can miss emotions, misunderstand vulnerable ppl, write us off...

i used to respect doctors so much - their power, their educatin. sometimes now i almost feel sorry for them. they enter ppl's lives with such a limited ability to help. the good ones heal but the mediocre ones do so little of substance. how many of us here are essentially healing ourselves, with the doctor just a voice of affirmation or suport...there are some good ones, sure, but they aren't the powerful and perfect ppl that i used to think

[tranzcrybe]

Doctors are like petrol stations...

In the old days, they would fuss over us checking the oil, cleaning the windscreen, (and how is your tyre pressure lately?). Nothing was beyond their investigation and we always felt in safe hands with our cars being lovingly pampered. Faith and confidence were the overriding sensations.

Nowadays, it is the way of the world where it's a case of "swipe your card" and do all the work yourself. Unlike my more trusting parents, I usually attend a doctor with a list of requirements/questions and defined expectations of the probable outcomes, so their ultimate role is to simply tick box A, B, or C and off I go. Sometimes I wonder if I should be sending them my bill...

For the record, Sleepy, I am not 'replying' to you per se - just going with the flow.

[Guest_1643]

more the merrier.... doctors seem to do so little, and then the expectations are still that we go them and get all the answers.... it is a disconnect of sorts.
Without alal the power and sheen, they're just trying their best, and we also have our own instincts about wht we need. a good doctor will listen nd respect those, where possible. a bad doctor will dictate, bulldoze, make us scared to question

i'm not happy wih the medical model overall, and think we should feel equal to doctors in some ways. we are experts in our body and mind, too. I hate the power model of doctors being above question. Not a reply - ust a continuation 🙂

[Guest_1643]

petty vent, but staying warm is exhausting me.
Bought some leggings but the three quater and driving me crazy in the cold

Bumping into a family member today was very upsetting

i feel sorry for them, more than anything. i feel sorry for society that gives them power and authority because of things they didn't really earn, and see that they aren't really very happy and the ppl around them are enabling them

[Guest_1643]

hard to put this into words, but i sometimes feel like my strengths are used against me

like i can't win

i am intelligent and perceptive, but i wouldnt say that is a bonus in the MH system. somtimes i know too much, i ask too many questions, i'm too defensive of my rights, and i know how to say when something isn't right. for many years i didn't have these skills, but now i do. and i can see sometimes that having this skills is another issue, at times. I wouldn't change anything and am proud to know how to stand up for myself -

BUT

ppl get bristly, weird and unhappy when u ask them questions and put urself first

ppl want us to be sheep sometimes, ironically, if u are a sheep, you can't recover... so it's really mixed up

u need to stand up for urself, but they attack u if u do. being intelligent doesn't do so many favours, it opens doors, than slams them shut in ur face and mocks u for even trying to enter. it's exhausting.