Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Guest_1055]

He is so angry, irritable and slammed something. I know he is so tired. Talked to me unkindly and harsh. Even walking heavy like in the house. I really don't like all that behaviour. I am not going to take it personally like I have in the past. So I just spoke to him gently just a couple of words after I gave him his dinner. Even asked him if he wanted anything else.

I am in my bedroom, just giving him some space now.

[Guest_1643]

felt a little stressed by my friend's email

told her i was going to hospital for MH

she told me she hopes i thrive there... not survive

how do u thrive in a MH hospital?
there's beauty in survivng...ppl mean well but i just wanna be okay where i'm at and realistic. a MH hospital is not a retreat with pompoms. We don't "crush' "win" or "beat" our problems.

We just do our best and it's okay. I'm not thriving.

[CMF]

So damn sick of my partners sis and her being around all the time. The 3 of them are chummy cos they spend so much time together so when I'm there I tune out. My partner thinks it's cos I'm tired, 'hit the wall'. I just after with him but really it's cos I feel left out and I'm I'm just sick of them. Get your own lives and let me spend time with my partner. If they want to be a threesome, then good luck to them.

[Guest_1584]

Partner wkend.

l'm feeling very touch and go about our situation. Yeah she needs to feel this feel that , but so do l , but l'm not all that sure just lately how wise it is that l'm on hold like this. lf her legals backfire or her visa isn't fixed , there is no us , nor can be . Maybe l should go back to my life and we check in later after the court cases. l've been a solid support for her over 2yrs 24 7 , but real life has mostly been separately in 2 different states bc of all this, so much life unlived . That'd be ok if there is light , but lawyers don't know, give us nothing , or negatives and yet at other times positives , they don't know jack in other words, so this is all feeling like one helluva gamble years wise , and it could easily be another one yet - only to have no glory . Just don't know if l'm doing the right thing here.

rx

[amberlite]

I don't like being told how to drive by my passenger, I guess only an insecure person does this but I have no pity for him. I actually feel nervous, under pressure and gutted. Probably more likely to crash with this nonsense happening. Control freak in my life, constantly giving me instructions. When if I acted this way it would be called nagging. Gees I hope lightning strikes soon

[Guest_1055]

When you are trying so hard to only eat food that is nourishing. Someone in the household happens to buy not nourishing food. When cravings hit, it is much harder.

[PsychedelicFur]

Just coming to terms that, by choice I am going to stay single for a very very long time. I need to heal and get over a lot of things. Relearn to enjoy my own company and get to really know myself once again. Otherwise I will keep attracting toxic and disrespectful people.

[Guest_1055]

Even if you live with others, I still feel lonely and alone. I need a connection with someone else. Someone to be on my side, in my corner, look out for me, really care about my welfare. I just want to be understood and known. This need to being understood and known is so strong in me. Am I wrong here?

Just crying out of loneliness. Don't want to feel sorry for myself either. But my heart simply aches for connection.

[Guest_1643]

feeling like I don't know how to take care of myself and b a friend to myself

keep pushing myself so hard and disrespecting my own needs

feel really overwhelmed with just managing my days since i left hospital

[Guest_1055]

Loneliness feels that it eats your very soul. Sounds gross. But that is what it feels like to me.