Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[mmMekitty]

I'll let go: being annoyed again, upset again, & not feeling confident I can explain in a way, which will be understood, & so I didn't try. So I lose again.

[Guest_1055]

Just need to let this go....Such a bad experience I had this afternoon. It left me angry, stressed, scared, confused.

I was driving from the breakwall ( where I walk) to pick someone up from the train station. For some reason, I took the wrong road. I hardly recognised the surrounding area, where I was driving. The road was so very busy. It was a major road with 3 lanes on each side. Many traffic lights. Buses pulling out. One nearly took me out. Scared me. The GPS wasn't working on my phone either. It kept cutting out. I normally have an excellent sense of direction... But not today. And rarely get lost. But I could not handle the constant busyness of these roads. Couldn't handle the clutter of buildings everywhere, streets which seemed to go in all directions. Every single traffic light was either red or orange. I needed to pick this person up at a certain time. I was about 1 hour late. And I know they would feel stressed. And that knowing stressed me out. The roads were like a hectic maze. The more I kept driving, the more it looked unfamiliar.

Tears and I found myself banging on the steering wheel. Steering wheel banging is not common for me. But I was so frustrated. No polite drivers around me it seemed. I didn't even know what lane I was supposed to be in. Truly wasn't myself. Whoever that is. Normally I like driving. But not today. Maybe my stress level was high today. So I simply couldn't cope. I don't know.

I am home now

[Guest_1643]

Feeling drained, exhausted and frustrated, and like pressure never ends.

Feeling unimportant, and quite scared, of certain ppl around me, who aren't making me feel safe.

[Guest_1055]

Hearing you Sleepy

[Guest_1055]

This is not like me...

Noises are triggering me. Dishes clanging, the doors hitting the door frames from the wind. The feeling of heat on me from the window, I cannot tolerate. Cannot listen to others. Concentration is low. Thoughts of wanting to go home, because of everything. Overwhelming. Heaviness.

[mmMekitty]

Just some impotent raving:

Now it's raining too much & some places are getting flooded - can someone please tell the rain to ease up? ... it makes me really nervous, even though I am very unlikely to be flooded where I am.

It's dangerous driving through flooded roads - don't do it!

I want everyone to be safe ...

For there to be no war either!!!! It's too sad.

I don't believe anyone winds a war.

Noises are making me jumpy, too, Shelll, even while the rain is loud. All I can do is take a 'time out', in a quiet, safe place, alone, blocking sounds, or muting them some, or I think, maybe I ought to make some noises myself?

[Guest_1643]

Today was a long day of stress and I'm over it

My body feels far from my mind, racing thoughts all over the place, yet I managed somehow

I don't feel whole

[Guest_1055]

Can tell I am slipping into the grey. Starting to not care about things. Heard the noise from the bird just now out the window. That's it... I normally feel a nice feeling when I hear beautiful bird noises. I hear it physically but it is like it is not registering. I really don't seem to care about it.

[mmMekitty]

Hi Shelll, what do you do when you notice this lack of feeling for things, like the birdsong? Do you have a 'go to' plan to follow?

[Guest_1055]

No, I don't have a go to plan. I just mindlessly emotionally eat... Just stuffed my self with huge amount of chocolate. Hate abusing myself this way. It never helps.. Makes it 100%worse.

Do you get like this... Start going into the grey. If so, what do you do?