Meditation, Manifesting, Gratitude & The Law of Attraction

[CMF]

Hi everyone,

Not sure where to start so hope I can express myself clearly and maybe with others' input we can expand on this. I'm interested in people's thoughts/ experience with meditation, manifesting, gratitude & the law of attraction. I've recently started using the Smiling Mind app to meditate when going to sleep and sometimes when feeling a little anxious, like tonight. It is something i thought i could never do as my mind rarely stops, however, with persistence, I find I enjoy it. I guess i tend to have a negative mindset which I am determined to change.I always felt uneasy about thinking positive things as i thought i would jinx myself, and that whenever I made a positive comment or felt happy it would go wrong or something negative would happen. So i refrained from allowing myself to be too happy, I guess to 'protect' myself. Recently i have been feeling happier, stronger, expressing gratitude and taking note of when things have come to me when i needed them. Coincidence, or answers to what i put out to the Universe? I like to think the latter. A work colleague one day told me to manifest something i wanted, put it out to the universe , so I'm trying. Example, recently we needed to measure the floor space at reception so we could calculate how many people we could have in at one time. I needed a tape measure, which i did not have. At that moment our handyman walked into the office. Guess what he had? I am getting into the habit of practising positive thinking instead of thinking/expecting negatives. If something 'negative' does crop up, it can be dealt with, it's not the end of the world. I look for the positive in every negative situation. I am becoming more aware of being grateful for little things, things like getting a good car park at work, a warn cosy bed, a tidy house. I feel when i am expressing gratitude I am putting positive thoughts out into the universe and I notice more positives instead of focusing on negatives. Late last week we had internet issues at work and a colleague i found a little annoying. I've been feeling very drained, agitated, negative for a few days. This morning things were not running smoothly for me. A result of my negative mind perhaps? Little things became a big deal, my morning was crap. If i look back, it wasn't really an issue, i just did things in a different order which gave me more relax time this evening. The Law of Attraction, positive thoughts, positive experiences.

What are your thoughts?

cmf x

[CMF]

Thank you my friends  

Your posts are both beautiful & inspiring. I am very blessed to have s as a friend.  We just get each other.

Thank you for also helping realise and understand what the friendship is teaching me 🙏

Cmf

[CMF]

Little miss & I were shopping tonight. I had a feeling I'd see my exe's son. I didn't but we popped into my other daughters work & she told me exes son was in the shopping centre cos he popped into her work to say hi 20 mins before we did. I told her I had a feeling he was around. I can always sense when I'll bump into one of his family or friends. I bump into everyone but him thank goodness. I think when he's on my mind I manifest the people associated with him that I bump in to. Just can't get a complete break from him.

[CMF]

S is on a holiday with his cousin for a week. I missed him from tge day he left. When my ex went o/s for 5 weeks I did miss him but I remember feeling some freedom when he left, like I needed the break from them. I've been unwell all week & S messaged me yesterday, not knowing if it would go thru, to say he hopes I'm feeling better. Ex wouldn't have done that as he's be more focussed on his own fun. In fact. Ex said he'd call on his stopover & didn't.  Instead he sent a photo of him & sis having drinks with his mate they arranged to meet during stopover.

On another topic, during my summer work break the workload was out of control. Everyone was so stressed. I've been off sick this week & 2 others off & the work is out of control again. I do so much extra at work, extra hours, training new people, I'm always in early. I'm not suggesting the workload is out of control cos I'm away but find it a funny conicidence that both times I'm off for a week or so it's crazy busy. It can be crazy busy when I'm there but both times it's been next level crazy busy 😳

[CMF]

M has been on my mind again. I think since Mother's day. Significant events tend to bring up memories. They make me remember what a jerk he is.

Him being on my mind usually means I'm gonna bump into someone associated with him 😕

[therising]

Hi CMF

If you do come across someone, I wonder what they will have to offer you in the way of greater consciousness. Will they lead you to become more conscious of how far along you're path you've traveled (through revealing little change in their life or your ex's life)? Will they lead you to become even more conscious of the relief and joys S brings you (through revealing one of the same old behaviours of your ex)? Perhaps they may lead you to feel more grateful in regard to having left so much behind, the things you are now free of. I believe everyone has a gift to give, a gift we either recognise or don't recognise. Perhaps who you come to meet will simply give you a smile and a kind word or two, while they are happy to see you. 🙂❤️

[CMF]

Thanks therising,

Always love your insights.  I haven't come across anyone. Last week S took me out for brunch & helped me with se things at home.  We talk and laugh. No awkward silence. He makes me feel good about who I am & how I look. He's so intelligent, emotionally & other ways.

I'm glad M knows he's no longer on a pedestal with M. He got exactly what he's deserved when I I finally told him what I thought of him & his behaviour.

[CMF]

Well it happened. I bumped into my relative that uded to see M & his mum at church. She daid she doesnt see them there anymore. They had a close relationship with the previous priest & he's gone.Was shopping tonight & popped onto my daughter's work. I had a feeling again that M's son was around & Was looking out for him. Little miss & I went to get something to eat & I got a message from my daughter thst M's son was at her work. I had to take her a drink & wanted to avoid him but thought no. I'm gonna walk in & say hello like it's nothing.  He gave me a big hug as did his gf. We all chatted & he told us the other son had been in a car accident,rolled their late grandfather's old Ute.  Bit of damage but all ok. We chatted a bit then hugged goodbye. He can go home & tell m he saw me. I felt some sadness but also hurt. I want people to go back & tell him they saw me & I was happy & my hair has grown etc. I want him to know its only him I despise & it won't affect how I am towards anyone else. I don't think he'll care.  He didn't before so he wouldn't now but after the sadness I felt anger. I remember his words that he was having such a great time overseas he didn't miss me.  A great time with his sister's friend possibly.  Anyway at least thst ice is broken. I knew I'd eventually bump into his  son at my daughter's work. I just can't completely cut the connection. Why?

[therising]

Hi CMF

I think as long as we're receiving energy from someone or sending energy to them, the channel that carries emotion stays open and active. A few questions I wonder about myself these days are

1. 'What kind of energy is moving through that channel?'  
2. 'I am happy with it?'
3. 'How can I manage it?' or 'How do I need to manage it?'

If I'm not happy with it or it's destroying me in some way, it's simply the wrong kind of energy or emotion. Changing what runs through that channel or connection between 2 people is definitely easier said than done, that's for sure. I'm being challenged to put this to the test at the moment in my life. 

While I feel the connection has been severed in a sense between myself and my mum (my best friend), with her having passed 2 weeks ago today, what runs through this channel between me and her are spikes or surges of overwhelming grief (from my end). It has to change. I have to develop a different connection with her, otherwise I'll suffer. The test, I believe, is to develop a deeply soulful connection with her, beyond the physical. The connection and the emotions that run through it will positively change over time, naturally taking me out of this grief. And while the connection with a living family member has suddenly become very dark and destructive in the way of emotion, there is the need for mutual forgiveness here. Moving forward by giving each other release from those emotions means what runs between us will become more positive. I think that if the 2 way channel that runs between 2 people has been very strong, it can remain strong from one or both ends, which explains the intensity of the emotion that runs through that channel. Learning to change the emotions or learning how to dial up or dial down the emotions become 2 of the greatest challenges. 

Seeing we can feel or sense high frequency and low frequency energies in motion (emotions), perhaps the greatest test of all comes down to tuning into the right channel, one we can be happy with. Tuning in means we first have to be willing to tune out of low frequency emotions, such as grief, anger, resentment etc. Again, easier said than done. The greatest tests in life test us to go 'next level' in the way of self understanding and self development. Rarely do we ever develop or evolve through what is easy. ❤️

[CMF]

Dear therising 

So sorry to hear of your mum's passing and sending you my deepest sympathy & warm comfort.

Thank you for your words.  It's alot to ponder.  Funny that the day before was my bday & would know that. I saw his sis the day their nonno passed. It's often significant dates. I don't want any connection with him. It did remind me though what a beautiful person is. How we just get each other. He sent me a bday message just after midnight on my bday. Something I knew he'd do cos it's something I would do. M on the other hand was too busy to read or reply to my 5 deep, heartfelt 5 year anniversary message cos he was too busy having a great time 🤷‍♀️

[therising]

Thank you so much for your warm and loving vibes ❤️

I think the more we focus on the loving, mutually giving and heartfelt connections with the people in our life, the more we lose focus on the connections we don't want to feel. Sometimes it takes time to shift focus away from those who tend to test us. There are definitely going to be times and triggers that test us in just how well we've managed to shift focus. When feeling those pangs of resentment or anger or sadness etc, I tend to see it as 'There's more work to be done before I begin to pass these tests with flying colours'. 🙂