I am hoping some
people here might have some words of advice or point me in the direction of
some resources I can access.
I have recently realised
I am an emotional eater. My default
reaction to sadness, loneliness, boredom is always to reach for food. I exercise a great deal, so I am not
significantly overweight (could certainly stand to lose 5-10 kilos). The problem is, I have consistently been
pretty much sad and lonely for the last 12 months, and don’t see it changing
any time soon. It seems lately the only
joy I get from life is eating; it’s instant positive gratification, and it’s
all I seem to have on the happiness front.
When socialising, I
see my friends being able to eat just a few slices of pizza, whereas I am restraining
myself from eating the whole box. I don’t
know how they do it, the food just seems utterly unimportant to them, like they
could take it or leave it, wouldn’t bother them. Whereas the whole time it is in front of me, I
am thinking about it, even though I’m trying desperately not to.
I don’t want to be
like this, I barely have my weight under control, and I feel like I’m walking
on a tightrope. I have tried to find
books on emotional eating and how I can break this cycle, but I haven’t had
much luck at all. Has anyone else here experienced
this? How do you manage it? Is there a way to break free and be a ‘normal’
eater?
