Beyond the Blue Horizon

[amd1953]

I sense that I am approaching the blue horizon.   Even so, it retreats further away from me as if trying to conceal something important from me.   What is there to hide that is worth so much subterfuge?   What is it I need to know in this final stage of life?   Who knows?   Who cares?   Well, I certainly do.   I want to understand everything that comes my way whether it is meant for me or not.   Life is short enough without the sensation of feeling cheated and deceived.   The challenge is to discover how to cut through the nonsense that cloaks its true meaning.   If I were a camel, I would feel at home in the desert.   If I were a dromedary, I would, indeed, feel cheated.   See Wikipedia for camels/dromedaries.   Spoiler alert!   A dromedary only has one hump.   If I were searching for a new home, I would look to the exoplanets.   Cosmologically speaking, a much better place to permanently reside.   The moon would be much too close for comfort.   I am thinking another galaxy would be great.   Certainly within a short drive to the restaurant at the end of the universe for tea and crumpets.   Like Albert Camus, I am a rebel without a cause.   I choose the absurdist rather than the existentialist philosophy.   Everything in this life is engineered towards those with skills, talent and the will to succeed.   I have now lost sight of the blue horizon.   I am in freefall back to earth where I will lie quietly in the lush meadows and star at the blue sky.

amd1953

[Croix]

Dear Amd1953~

Any thinking person has demons inside and they can indeed rule your life, particularly now you are retired and don't have the same chunks of your day taken up with working.

At the start of this thread it became obvious you were well read and were familiar with the absurd movement (including camels), and here you mentioned an urge to write. Would it be possible to combine the two and write something from your expereinces, perhaps along the lines of Sartre and Beckett? A short story, a play, a poem - dealers choice.

Mind you, something well crafted can be a source of satisfaction, even if you are the only one to see it. (Someone should have told Leonardo that as he spent a large portion of his life fiddling with La Giocondo)

If you look on the web there are plenty of sites to place any writing. If poetry you can continue it here in the Forum.

Croix