Hi Mr BP,
Welcome to the forum and the community here. Sorry to read you are struggling right now. Many of us have been in that place!
Sometimes I like to think that I just need to float and survive for a while. There are days when trying to do anything above just surviving seems far too hard. Eating. Breathing. Sleeping. They are important on days like that. Climbing Mt. Everest can wait until tomorrow or next week.
Finding something to be thankful for can help change the mood of the mind.
Trying to do something satisfying even if it is just making a cup of your favourite tea or coffee, sitting and enjoying the flavour might help.
Distractions can work like playing games, going for a walk, doing a puzzle, reading, looking at magazines, anything that can distract your mind and add a little satisfaction and pleasure helps.
I'm really sorry you have not found a person to love and care for and have that in return. Could you find some volunteer work with people so you some kind of connection?
For that human touch, would you consider a massage? I enjoy the Asian massages you find at shopping centres, they massage over the top of your clothes and sometimes use a small sheet as well to put over you. It is a way I feel a sense of connection.
( I do have a husband who stopped all physical contact over 10 years ago. We have separate bedrooms and he calls me his friend or his house mate.)
Do you have any pets? I know they do not replace human contact, but they certainly help to feel connected to something that is living.
Cheers to you from Dools
