When things couldn't get much worse!
Hi Paullus. I can't speak from personal experience, but I know lots of people who stay with others due to low self esteem. Please don't be down on yourself for this. Sometimes it takes us time to see our true value of ourselves, and what we deserve in life. Love and happiness. If you couldn't get it with your partner, then it is a good thing you have ended it. I wish a lot of the time I could change things, but thats hindsight for you. Try remember that there is nothing we can do to change the past, yes we can look back in frustration and wish we could change it, but then we are living in the past and not focusing on the present and future. Try think of all the things you can do by yourself know what you are free and happy.
Sorry if this is not the best advice. I did my best. I am glad you have come here to vent because this is a safe non-judgemental space and this is why the forums are here 🙂