Please help me

Bonbonsp · ‎15-02-2023

I met this girl. We went to formal together. We went on a bunch of dates. We hugged. Bought each other gifts and talked for hours everyday. We hung out all the time. I rember asking her out and I swear she said yes and we continued to do stuff together getting closer and closer. She even came over to give me some food she made just for me after I had a surgery. She bought me a gifts bac from Hawaii. I thought we had something going. But one day it's like 5pm she texts me asking me if she told anyone we were together. To be honest I did but I told like my close friends. Apprently she only thought of me as a friend. This happens after the summer break. We did alot in the summer. And all of a sudden it's like I don't exist. Whenever we interacted she would say things like "I need to go to the bathroom" and she would never come back. She also never texts me. She doesn't sit with me. And she it's if she is a diffrent person. I feel like she never liked me she just used me to get over her ex. She also had some mental heath issues as she had anorexia. She used to be a super popular but moved. So that's how we met and she told me she didn't like partys or being popular etc. But now she's going back to what she was before. And based upon my judgement. She wants someone else. She's going to partys making new friends. And hanging out with this other guy. She pretends to care one but it's all an act becasue the second she sees me she runs away as far as possible. I also have alot of other issues going on rn such as mu great uncle dying and my dad with heart issues. And it's hard with mu studies and everything. I've been so depressed. And I want to stop living. I can't stop thinking about her. She's in my dreams every night. Deep down i really just want her. The old her. Maybe I'm going insane or blinded. But I loved her and she never loved me.

jaz28 · ‎15-02-2023

Hi bonsbonsp,

Thank you for sharing your story, that must have taken a lot of courage from you. It sounds to me like you did have something going on with this girl, and it hurts to know that it no longer is. Heartbreak and rejection are some of the most difficult human emotions to feel, and it seems like you are going through both right now - and my heart goes out to you. BUT I will say - things get better, slowly and over-time, yes, BUT they do get better. I promise you are loved and hopefully have some good support around you with some good friends and maybe family - are you able to hang out with them a bit more? Are there hobbies you used to enjoy that you could back into? Immerse yourself in studies? That is the best way to move on - to get stuck into life and try to distract yourself. You cannot control her feelings, but you can control how you deal with yours. Someone better for you will eventually come along, trust me - when you least expect it. You should stay here on this earth, so that you can experience all the love someone else will be able to offer you. I also send my condolences about your great uncle and your dad, that must be very hard too! BUT YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS. Would you consider seeing a mental health professional or counsellor? They also will be able to help you.

IF you're ever in crisis please call Lifeline on 13 11 14 or us here at BB on 1300 224 636.

Sending love and I promise things will get better. Please reach out if you need again,

Jaz xx

Bonbonsp · ‎16-02-2023

I have some friends. They are great. But right now I don't feel like I'm getting along with anyone. I just want to isolate myself.

jaz28 · ‎20-02-2023

Why do you feel this way? Is there a reason you do not get along with them, or is this a feeling?