Not even broken up yet but already upset
I have been with my girl friend for years and things are getting very stale. I have every daydreamed about her dumping me so I could just start over with my life.
Also Iive by country side and I hate so I am planning to move to the city but girl friend wouldn't, she wants me to just go check it out and come back after a year or two. I honestly can't see how this long distance thing can work. So I thought its high time to go our own ways. I am about to break up with her and start a new life. I thought I would be free but now have thus overwhelming grief. Only now I realised that she is the most caring person I have ever been with, even the nagging comes from her good heart. I am so lost, feels like I am making the biggest mistake of my life! But I also know that I will regret if I stayed (I am moving to the city regardless, this path is sealed), I can't sleep and I can't seem to focus (but still doing great at work). I also maintain a fake strong personality to the outside world. I can't even cry when I feel like crying, no tear, nothing. I feel so exhausted.... any suggestions
It's not an easy decision you had to make, but one that you have made.
In a year or two so much can happen and now what you are suffering from is being alone, and whether the r/ship would be OK if she came to you is unknown, it's now is what we are concerned about.
You say that you would regret it if you stayed and it may take a while for you to get settled, and you don't even know she
Be careful of your fake personality because one day it will become too exhausting, so get the help you need starting from your doctor, talk about how you are feeling.
We are always here to listen to you.
My Best Wishes.