Hi all,
So, the weeks go on and months come along. My wife has constantly hated on me, despised me being around, wants me gone, hopes I'll have a heart attack (nice comment that one) cause you can die when that happens in my age group.
I am at the end now. About to call a lawyer and end it. It's what she wants. She will be so happy with me gone for good. Cause she says that.
Well, it turns out that I have ADHD as diagnosed by a professional psychologist.
I have spent hours reading about it.
Apparently, I have RSD.
And I am in the70% of ADHDers who experience emotional dysregulation, which means we struggle to manage our moods and feelings — and we may have intense reactions to things. I have.
Today she asked a question about a person on TV. I answered with who it is, in a roundabout manner. She lost her sh&*t. I gave the person's name and said Yeah, he's so and so's son.
Pretty simple stuff, but no, she abused me and complained about how I answered. I gave the details.
Sadly, with RSD, thats what you do. It's not great, but it's a condition that I've never had in my life till now. Makes me angry.
But she doesn't care and says it's just me, I'm an asshole, who cares about your condition. Not her.
It's fun for her with her menopause to abuse me. An excuse, frankly.
So she wants me gone, have a heart attack and be dead, or just drive off and disappear so she can keep our $2 million dollar house and I have nothing.
That won't happen. I know the law and will pull that card and win; I'm legally qualified.
I'm exhausted with the constant hate and wanting me gone.
It was a lovely relationship before.
I'm struggling with a new job I just got, feel like they're already having doubts about me after 5 minutes being there. 3 weeks.
I can't have that happen again, illegally fired from my last job, using my qualifications to take them to court and sue. I will win that. Made my blood pressure go up, though.
I met a gorgeous girl at my new job. She is a lovely Italian girl. Don't know what will happen there. If it does, I'll be the happiest person in the country. She's perfect. Change my life, but who knows, can't rely on that right now. She's very kind to me.
Anyway, I am at the end. I'm burnt out. She's cruel toward me. Doesn't care about a condition, just says it's me doing it, I'm a bad person. Others don't think that.
Venting here, love thoughts on what to do. I have nothing left. About to get a lot of money for my music royalties, I have a hit song globally, go me! I'm good at that stuff. I could move to Germany, have a lovely friend there. Would become a citizen with my background and be gone for good.
Thanks if you can, as always, I'm busted.
