My mum's side of my immediate family is pushing me to suicide

mikotheawesome

Basically, this morning my mother asked me if I wanted to go to the beach for Christmas Eve and I said no, because I wasn't in the mood. Then she proceeded to give me the silent treatment and gaslight me into believing she DIDNT do that and I'm the evil one. Then my step-dad came down and borderline yelled at me to clean my room even though it's already clean and the are just little by little pushing me to the edge and I'll either snap or kms and I don't know what to do. I'm 13 and I don't know if I can deal with this for another 5 years. My mother and father are divorced but I can't stay with my dad due to his demanding job in the city. I really don't know what to do. Im having urges that im worried about.

Can anyone help?

indigo22

Hi mikotheawsome,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for reaching out to us.

I'm sorry to hear how you are feeling, it sounds like there is some tension between you and your parents.

You are at a very difficult age where things don't always make sense, moving from child to teen is full of angst and hormones which make life hard to navigate.

I would like to suggest that aside from talking here on the forums that you also reach out to the helpline below. They also have a chat option if you prefer that to talking. They are there to help so please make use of the service anytime you feel urges that worry you. There can sometimes be a wait to talk to someone, but please don't let that put you off.

Kid's Helpline - available 24/7 - up to age 25 - 1800 55 1800

you will find information on webchat here

https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling

scroll down the page to find the webchat button to connect.

I hope this helps, and please feel free to keep talking with us too.

You are not alone,

indigo

mikotheawesome

Thank you so much

I'm glad someone else understands me because I've been recently getting quite close to suicide and I felt like I just needed somewhere to talk to someone that I didn't know in real life.

Thank you indigo

Miko

Sol

Hi Miko,

I understand you said you can't move in with your dad, but have you been able to explain your current situation to him? Perhaps he could help brainstorm a solution, or even just be on your side through it all.

indigo22

I do understand Miko,

I began my journey with depression around your age and have had times throughout my life when suicidal ideation crept in and consumed my thoughts. I am now in my 60s and have not thought that way for a number of years but it was a lot more difficult when I was young. Back then, help was not easily available and mental health was not talked about so there was no awareness. I am glad this is not the case now and help is just a call away.

Just remember to reach out to someone when you are feeling low, you don't need to try to manage it alone.

Chat to me whenever you wish Miko,

indigo

indigo22

Hi again Miko,

This is a post I wrote recently and I think it is something that may help you at the moment. There may be some things that you don't yet have a choice with, but not everything.

https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/staying-well/the-true-meaning-of-self-love/td-p/613554

Thinking of you,

indigo