My mum's side of my immediate family is pushing me to suicide

[mikotheawesome]

Basically, this morning my mother asked me if I wanted to go to the beach for Christmas Eve and I said no, because I wasn't in the mood. Then she proceeded to give me the silent treatment and gaslight me into believing she DIDNT do that and I'm the evil one. Then my step-dad came down and borderline yelled at me to clean my room even though it's already clean and the are just little by little pushing me to the edge and I'll either snap or kms and I don't know what to do. I'm 13 and I don't know if I can deal with this for another 5 years. My mother and father are divorced but I can't stay with my dad due to his demanding job in the city. I really don't know what to do. Im having urges that im worried about.

Can anyone help?

[indigo22]

Hi mikotheawsome,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for reaching out to us.

I'm sorry to hear how you are feeling, it sounds like there is some tension between you and your parents.

You are at a very difficult age where things don't always make sense, moving from child to teen is full of angst and hormones which make life hard to navigate.

I would like to suggest that aside from talking here on the forums that you also reach out to the helpline below. They also have a chat option if you prefer that to talking. They are there to help so please make use of the service anytime you feel urges that worry you. There can sometimes be a wait to talk to someone, but please don't let that put you off.

Kid's Helpline - available 24/7 - up to age 25 - 1800 55 1800

you will find information on webchat here 

https://kidshelpline.com.au/get-help/webchat-counselling

scroll down the page to find the webchat button to connect.

I hope this helps, and please feel free to keep talking with us too.

You are not alone,

indigo