My living situation at home with my family has always been difficult. After talking to friends and doing some research, I recently discovered that it's more than that. My situation fits the definition of "domestic violence".
Due to health problems, I never managed to move out of home by myself, despite how much I wanted to. The only time I managed to move was for work, where my accommodation was arranged for me as part of my job.
I recently had to quit my job due to health problems. My family was supportive of me coming back to live with them. While they were kind to me at first, they've already gone back to their own ways.
The stress is so bad that in my current state, I can barely get anything done. I need to deal with my health, go out and make new friends, and search for a new job. But with all the abuse, I've come to a complete standstill.
I'm researching places to rent so that I can move out of home by myself. I know based on past experience with work that I can live on my own, and thrive in that environment. It's not ideal to move out before having a job lined up. But I'm desperate to get out of my current situation.
I have a lot of doubts. I feel like I'm incapable of moving out, even though I successfully lived on my own for years. I don't know if I'm making the right decision, or what people would think of me if they knew I was doing something so drastic. I feel ashamed that I don't have friends to move out with together, since that's far cheaper and what all of my friends did.
The abuse from my family feeds into my doubts. I don't know anymore. All I can think is how much easier this would be with friends who know what they're doing.
I'm looking for support and advice.
